Feeling like complete shit. Hurt myself again, haven't done it since just before christmas. I feel guilty yet relieved, Can't handle anymore, can't cope any longer, i'm tired and worn out, i just can't go on anymore :-( I don't want to go in to work and don't know what to say to them, as far as they are aware i just have depresison...they have no idea about the BPD or adjustment disorder. :-( why is it all so fucking hard and complicated!!!!!