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Emma97

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I didn't self harm for a month. Today I just did again ... I feel so sad, I'm a mess, I feel like there is no hope anymore, I'm crying all the time, and worst part is, I can't tell this to anyone. I feel so lonely ... I just wish everything would stop for a moment
 
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ThisIsOnlyABumpInTheRoad

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Im so proud that you went so long without, Thats amazing! It may not feel good now but just think that if you can go so long without self harming then maybe next time you can go longer.

Though is there something that triggered you to start? I've also been trying to stop as I've done it every single night. But I took a week off work to do a bit of self care and figure out why im doing this. Maybe that could also help you
 
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Fairy Lucretia

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try not to be so hard on yourself I relapse sometimes and I think that is just part of getting well unfortunately
please keep talking x we care xxx
 
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Emma97

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Im so proud that you went so long without, Thats amazing! It may not feel good now but just think that if you can go so long without self harming then maybe next time you can go longer.

Though is there something that triggered you to start? I've also been trying to stop as I've done it every single night. But I took a week off work to do a bit of self care and figure out why im doing this. Maybe that could also help you
Thank you it means a lot to me, yeah I've been dealing with depression and it's coming back a bit ...
 
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Emma97

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try not to be so hard on yourself I relapse sometimes and I think that is just part of getting well unfortunately
please keep talking x we care xxx
It's really helping knowing that I'm not so alone in this, thanks 🙏
 
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Xaven

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In my recovery, I call self harming just once or a few times again a 'slip up' and I only consider habitual sh to be a relapse. This helps give me perspective on my recovery, as when I do slip up I remind myself it's not too late to avoid a relapse. My last relapse ended in April and I've managed to stay on track with a handle full of slip ups since then. I burned myself again recently and I just don't feel that I have the strength to fight it at this time, but I feel bad about giving up all that work on my recovery.

Anyways, good job on a month without self harm! That shows strength. I struggle with depression, too (since long before I was diagnosed as bipolar) and I know how brutal it can get. Hang in there!
 
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