- Sep 3, 2018
I've never actually posted on a forum before. I have spent hours of my life searching for people who feel similar to how I feel and reading other peoples advice and have always found that invaluable. It's strange that I'm feeling so nervous to write on this but could really use advice and help from people who have gone through what I am.
I have suffered from depression and anxiety since my late teens after an abusive relationship. There were various other factors contributing to my depression but that was the real trigger in my life. I started going to therapy two years ago which was the best decision of my life. Last September I started on Citalopram (10mg because I was so nervous and saw it as a failing being on medication - I am my own worst enemy!) and found it wasn't enough and after 2 months upped my dose to 20mg. I have worked hard over the last year and with the help of my therapist and doctor I'm in a much better place and we all agreed I could start reducing my medication. I reduced to 10mg 11 days ago and have been having all sorts of withdrawals: severe anxiety, brain zaps, confusion, crying spells, depression, fatigue, irritability, crazy dreams. I know from all these other forums that this is all completely normal but I'm really struggling and in the headspace I'm in, even though other forums say it's normal - I feel like it's never going to go away. I guess I'm just looking for advice and reassurance that everything is going to be okay.
I have an amazing support system in my family and my boyfriend is wonderful and always there. But because none of them suffer from any of this it can be difficult to relate.
Can anyone give me some advice?
Thanks in advance.