
KP1
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I think now the hardest thing I find is to keep going back down hill and to always feel it's my fault .It knocks me back and dents my confidence a bit more every time.
When I'm really low I become very suicidal with the added pressure of hiding it from my family.
I recently had five days of feeling relatively good probably the best for a long while followed by a plunge.I then took small o/ds over three days over the bank holiday weekend to give myself some temporary oblivion.Now I just feel sick and very stupid. I rang my CPN that I've got for a while and she said I risk damaging my liver and I told her I felt better today which I did for a while.
What I don't understand is that I was feeling good for the 5 days mentioned,taking my meds as prescribed and trying to get more active and yet the crash still happened. This is despite ad's and a mood stabalisers (for depression).I think the clinic want to discharge me this month as the psyh says I'm not depressed! How I feel is certainly not normal so I don't know what I am any more. If anyone has any suggestions I would really really appreciaite any support. Sorry for the ramblings.
When I'm really low I become very suicidal with the added pressure of hiding it from my family.
I recently had five days of feeling relatively good probably the best for a long while followed by a plunge.I then took small o/ds over three days over the bank holiday weekend to give myself some temporary oblivion.Now I just feel sick and very stupid. I rang my CPN that I've got for a while and she said I risk damaging my liver and I told her I felt better today which I did for a while.
What I don't understand is that I was feeling good for the 5 days mentioned,taking my meds as prescribed and trying to get more active and yet the crash still happened. This is despite ad's and a mood stabalisers (for depression).I think the clinic want to discharge me this month as the psyh says I'm not depressed! How I feel is certainly not normal so I don't know what I am any more. If anyone has any suggestions I would really really appreciaite any support. Sorry for the ramblings.