Recovering psychotic

[RecoveringJ]

Hi people,
Im currently just recovering froma psychotic episode. The medication im on blocks dopamine and neurotransmitters -which i know is esssential in order to get better but it has affected the way my brain works...
I can hardly string 4 sentnces together which makes converstion hard.my brain gets tired very quickly and all i end up saying is "yes" or "no."

If anyone has experienced something similar i would like to hear..

 

[Apotheosis]

It's a dilemma isn't it?

 

[RecoveringJ]

it certainly is. I went to see my GP today..and there isnt really aything i can do. However he did tell me that my dopamine and seritonian / neurotransmitters would return to normal after i stopped taking the medication.
So it looks like ive have to wait till october maybe christmas to have a proper conversation..boooo

 

[Apotheosis]

I am maybe not the best person to chat with about it all. I have a very dim view of meds. But, what alternatives do we have access to? It's meds or nothing in 99.9% of cases.

 

[RecoveringJ]

yer true..iwould say taking the meds is the safer route..I dont want another episode!

 

[Apotheosis]

yer true..iwould say taking the meds is the safer route..I dont want another episode!

That is the balance & the pay off. I don't want any more full blown episodes of psychosis - so reluctantly I keep ingesting the tablets every day, & I try not to focus on all the negatives of doing so.

Had circumstances been different, & if circumstances change, to including a higher level of support; then I don't think I would have needed meds, & in the future I would still love to get off them. But our society is not geared for the opportunities of those med free recoveries for most people. The choice for most is meds or nothing - a very poor choice; I don't think it really is a meaningful choice at all.

 

[emc2rd]

Sounds like your cognitive thought process are acting up. I sometimes get this way but you just have to be patient and work through it. When this happens to me I tell people that my cognitive thinking is out of wack and that it's best for me to not have conversations and that I need to be quiet I tell them this because it's not only frustrating to others but it can be embarassing and frustrating for youself too.
Just my opinion.\

emc2rd

 

[bluenomore]

Hey Recovering,

Yes, I know what you are going through. Nothing makes any sense and you can't sort out your thoughts in order to make a proper decision about what you want to do next (let alone who to vote for in the next General election).

it's a bit of a pisser, isn't it?

Take a deep breath... (in... out... ) and just take the medication for now. Don't worry about making decisions... it just doesn't matter. In a few months, you may decide that you don't want to go on like this... and then you can decide for yourself whether you want to continue to take your meds. but, for now... take it easy... let your brain heal a tad.

take it easy,

Blue

 

[emc2rd]

Hi Recovering,

I was in a state of psychosis for six years straight and have been put in the most horrible conditions by this agency that is supposed to help you. I found out they were treating me for the wrong mental illness. So, this agency lost their court battle to work with the state. The new agency cared more about me and put me on the right medications finally and I came out of psychosis within a month and a half! I have been psychosis-free since Feburaury 2008.
They have also been successful at getting me off HALF my medications. Instead of taking 8 diffrent meds I'm down to three. So hang in there, take your meds and you could possibly be weaned off some of your meds at a later time and I would suggest that you keep on your meds for at least 6 months and see your prescribing doctor at least once a month.

My meds also help keep me from crying, getting angry, and give me a pleasant personality as I once had. I excercise 2-5 times a week (jogging) and belong to an art stuido that helps me get my frustrations out by means of art.

The hardest thing to learn though is to keep from discussing your illness/health with anyone, most people do not like to hear about people's weakness/illnesses. If they ask fine but this takes some tough love sometimes to be told this. I believe it's okay online but never in person.

So, you see, there are some of us that completely recover 100%, but I know that I will have to take meds for the rest of my life and I'm okay with that. Now I don't have to worry about frying my liver nor do I have any chance of getting diabeties because my MD, Endocrinologist/metabolism specialist and psycharist all get together and discuss what is best for me, oh, and they include me in the discussion so we can keep me on the right path.

I'm also hypothroid - this can mock psychotic episodes too sometimes and I also have a benign tumor on my pituitary gland (at the base of the brain and sits on top of my CNS (central nervous system) that I'm going to have removed. It is one thing that could be causing a lot of my problems. I'm going to have surgery to remove it because it is pressing on my optical nerves and I'm going blind because of this. I have other ailments but I don't like to tell people about them.

Hope this helps inform you a bit more regurarding medications you must take,

emc2rd

 

[RecoveringJ]

Hi I would like to than all of you for your comments and stories.
I've began CBT (cognative behavioural therapy) which has gone really well.. I think one of the best things that has come out of t is reading this book called the Happiness trap by Russ Harris. Definatly give this a read I couldn't stress more how useful soe of the skills are...basiclly it talks about how to re look at thoughts in your mind. There only an issue if you make them an issue...

Im still taking the meds...apriprzazole or something along that line... going to more CBT next week followed by the psychiatrist.

Ill quote out of this book i have for you guys if you cant get it..its that good plus youve all been a great help to me.

Speak soon