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Newtobpd98

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Hi I am a new user. I’m 21 and only just been diagnosed with bpd. It’s been a long road to get here and my symptoms have been more and more severe recently. Impulsivity has been at a high I’ve bleached and died my hair a multitude of times in the past two weeks. I went for a piercing today. I’m trying to do anything to distract myself but I have no idea what from. I know I want to self harm but I don’t even feel low. Does anyone else get this?
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Jules5

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Hi Newrobpd98. Have you self harmed before? I use to self harm and I have so many scars. But today no matter how I am feeling I stopped self harming. Maybe a little I self harm still but not like before. I have been on those highs where we have to do something-just anything for a feeling. You have highs and sometimes the lows with BPD. I just came off one of the highs where I was doing anything to keep it going. Right now I just feel okay and not wanting to fulfill my desires. I am all over the place with BPD. More is never enough and too little is depressing.

Are you on medications? My meds only dulled my sense of self-I am getting off them now. The Therapy is working good for me. My gp is great goes the extra mile for me. I sure hope you have medical support. No Fears and No Worries Lots of love and hugs Jules
 
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Newtobpd98

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Hi Newrobpd98. Have you self harmed before? I use to self harm and I have so many scars. But today no matter how I am feeling I stopped self harming. Maybe a little I self harm still but not like before. I have been on those highs where we have to do something-just anything for a feeling. You have highs and sometimes the lows with BPD. I just came off one of the highs where I was doing anything to keep it going. Right now I just feel okay and not wanting to fulfill my desires. I am all over the place with BPD. More is never enough and too little is depressing.

Are you on medications? My meds only dulled my sense of self-I am getting off them now. The Therapy is working good for me. My gp is great goes the extra mile for me. I sure hope you have medical support. No Fears and No Worries Lots of love and hugs Jules
Hey jules. Yes I’ve self harmed for many years and it has gradually gotten more severe. As I’m only just getting to grips with bpd I’m not too sure what I am even feeling at the mo. I’m not happy nor sad I don’t really feel anything in particular. I suppose that makes sense in correlation with what you said about highs. I can be really happy in a specific moment for example I had a job interview today and it went well so I was in a good mood for a few hours after that and then I got my piercing and I suppose now the high is wearing off?? I don’t know how to word my emotions. I am hopefully going to be starting DBT but there is a long waiting list unless I again go private which is so expensive. I am currently on anti depressants but they are still fairly new so can’t be changed yet. The psychiatrist did say to stick with the medication I have though. Thank you for your reply again
 
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