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Willinnm

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Sorry to just post this without a real reason, other than writing this may help distract for a short while. Feeling terribly anxious and wishing I could just go into a bathroom stall and release this crap ... instead I’m here.
My apologies- and my best wishes to everyone else feeling that nearly irresistible urge.
Kindest regards, Will
 
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Hello
I assume you’re in a crisis. Please get a help. You can call warm lines. Your state has them. Or you can call a crisis help line. We all experience intense moment, please try to vent. Hope you’ll be ok.
 
JessisMe

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Just keep venting to us here and try to breathe and distract your way through the urges. You will get through it and eventually it will pass. :hug:
 
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Keep yourself around people. That way there is no opportunity to sh.
Keep talking
Hugs
Fox
 
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Willinnm

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Thank you everyone! I’m out of town visiting my (elderly) parents, so I thankfully don’t have any implements with me, and I’ve stayed busy with them (and the gym - where, at least when home) I typically find myself SHing.
I know counting days is counter productive; thinking then at some point I’ve “earned’ it somehow. So I’m just moving one day at a time.
I greatly appreciate each of you and your kind encouragement. I hope you, and everyone here, are having a wonderful day.
Best wishes, Will
 
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Willinnm

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So I made it through a trip visiting my elderly parents, and back home, in my city gym. And I CAN NOT stop thinking of going into the bathroom stall to SH. Long ago I was taught to “always be prepared” so it’s just my habit of carrying implements. I know better, but still stuff my pockets with all sorts of things.
I’ve been taking my meds religiously, have semi-patches my relationship with my therapist, and my wife knows about my previous SH ... but here I am lifting weights and the only thing in my mind is getting up and walking into that bathroom!
Why is this seemingly so impossible?! [email protected] [email protected]#*!!!! 😖
 
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