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Really want to harm myself

soulsearcher

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Doesn't sound stupid to me, mine does the same, images in my mind are common and sometimes include self harm but images in my eyes seem beyond the abilities of mine thankfully.
Thanks for understanding bro
What sort of images do you get? If you don't mind me asking
 
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It sounds like you have a lot of anxiety going on here too. Can they not increase your meds to help you? I know, meds aren't the answer for everything, but they are a useful help for us all. I too see my "attacker" and feel him touching me at times. Its really scary.
Most of my meds are at the highest dosage

I'm on anti psychotics, two anti depressants, mood stabilizer plus more stuff for anxiety

Meds do help me it's just the voices are so intense and vicious it drives me mad and I just want to kill myself just to find peace

Sorry you're going through that it must be hard

Is your attacker a devil?
 
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I can't go into the images about self harm but I see faces all the time, a common thing is for my voice to hold images of people I pass as a passenger in a car in my mind for a short time and tries to put images of cats in the road but I know they're just him being sadistic. He knows how much I love cats, he'll even say the word "cat" every now and then which is why I don't drive myself.
 
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I can't go into the images about self harm but I see faces all the time, a common thing is for my voice to hold images of people I pass as a passenger in a car in my mind for a short time and tries to put images of cats in the road but I know they're just him being sadistic. He knows how much I love cats, he'll even say the word "cat" every now and then which is why I don't drive myself.
Thanks for sharing about the images you get

I'm sorry youve had to through this too

I'm trying to find a exorcist I feel like I need to exorcise these devils it can be diffiicult finding a decent trustworthy exorcist as there is a lot of charlatans out there
 
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Really want to harm myself, getting urges and thoughts to do serious damage to myself

These devils keep telling me to do it,
It's so intense and constant,
Am so fed up I just want to die
They used to tell me to kill myself, I understand how difficult can be to resist those urges and thoughts. :hug:
 
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Please know I am rooting for you. Don't know why our supposed God allows this to happen to innocent people.
 
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There is no God, there is no Devil.
Only you and your willpower. And your willpower is a great thing. Stronger than you think.
Self harm is addictive, the more you do it the more you want it. And the more you think about it, the more you think about it. That's how it goes.

We need to find something to snap you out of this.

Talk to us we, are here for you.
 
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I hate to disagree with you, but we live in a supernatural world. God like entities have revealed themselves to me, and a devil voice haunts me daily, telling me to "burn".
 
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I hate to disagree with you, but we live in a supernatural world. God like entities have revealed themselves to me, and a devil voice haunts me daily, telling me to "burn".
These are just neurological delusions.
I have had my "experiences" too, but I know they are not logical or rooted in reality.
I'm sorry you are experiencing these voices, that sounds super scary, and like you need some help to get through that. I hope you are getting the right support. Don't believe the voices.
 
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How did last night go? Managed to sleep alright?

I sleep well thanks to medication even though I fall asleep every night to my voice talking and singing.

At least he can't mess with my dreams any more and wake me up 5 times a night to talk about them.
 
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How did last night go? Managed to sleep alright?

I sleep well thanks to medication even though I fall asleep every night to my voice talking and singing.

At least he can't mess with my dreams any more and wake me up 5 times a night to talk about them.
Managed to fall asleep but kept waking up

Glad that you got good sleep
 
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Most of my meds are at the highest dosage

I'm on anti psychotics, two anti depressants, mood stabilizer plus more stuff for anxiety

Meds do help me it's just the voices are so intense and vicious it drives me mad and I just want to kill myself just to find peace

Sorry you're going through that it must be hard

Is your attacker a devil?
No he's not a devil, just a psychopathic killer in my mind. I stayed asleep on the sofa with a knife some nights. But he has gone recently. Maybe you need a change of meds if these aren't working.
 
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No he's not a devil, just a psychopathic killer in my mind. I stayed asleep on the sofa with a knife some nights. But he has gone recently. Maybe you need a change of meds if these aren't working.
@calypso sorry to hear that, you must've been really scared, I'm glad he's gone

I'm going to take it as it comes with the meds and might ask for a change if things don't improve
 
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I am so sorry you are feeling this way and going through this. I pray it will pass quickly and you will be okay again. Meds do help my voices. Risperdone especially. I am on the therapeutic amount and it also keeps me from harming my self. Lots of love and hugs
 
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I am so sorry you are feeling this way and going through this. I pray it will pass quickly and you will be okay again. Meds do help my voices. Risperdone especially. I am on the therapeutic amount and it also keeps me from harming my self. Lots of love and hugs
Thank you means a lot hugs
 
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