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Really want to harm myself

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Really want to harm myself, getting urges and thoughts to do serious damage to myself

These devils keep telling me to do it,
It's so intense and constant,
Am so fed up I just want to die
 
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Sick to death of these devil's they won't leave me alone :(

Sorry for the ranting but I just need too let it out
 
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Hi,
Hope you'll be okay, you must be exhausted.
We're here for you.
 
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Rant away if it helps. People here will understand and listen.
 
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Rant away if it helps. People here will understand and listen.
Thank you

Spoke to the crisis team and had my night meds early to try and calm me down
 
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These devil's won't leave me alone,
They insist I harm myself
 
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They have no power. Is there anyone you can talk to about this? I agree with Mayflower, you must be exhausted with it all. Can you go to bed early and try to sleep it off? We are here for you if you need us. Keep talking if that helps.
 
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Don't give in, you're stronger than him and he knows it, he's trying to find a weak spot in your defences.

You're the dominant mind and your devil can't stand that so wants you to harm yourself, the more you ignore him the more he'll understand he can't influence you any more and may give up entirely over time.

I'm still waiting for mine to give up trying to get me to stop ignoring him and medicating him but mine's still in denial over the whole thing.
 
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They have no power. Is there anyone you can talk to about this? I agree with Mayflower, you must be exhausted with it all. Can you go to bed early and try to sleep it off? We are here for you if you need us. Keep talking if that helps.
I spoke to my wife and cousin,
I am exhausted, it's 24/7 non stop

I'm in bed had my meds but just can't sleep all I can think about is harming myself
 
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Don't give in, you're stronger than him and he knows it, he's trying to find a weak spot in your defences.

You're the dominant mind and your devil can't stand that so wants you to harm yourself, the more you ignore him the more he'll understand he can't influence you any more and may give up entirely over time.

I'm still waiting for mine to give up trying to get me to stop ignoring him and medicating him but mine's still in denial over the whole thing.
Yea I need to learn to ignore him bit I see and hear him

It freaks me out when I see him
 
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You can still see him on medication? That makes mine angry with himself, he can't figure out how to do that.
 
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You can still see him on medication? That makes mine angry with himself, he can't figure out how to do that.
Yea I've only been able to see them recently, I can't see them all the time,, they come and go

When they come I close my eyes but when I close my eyes I see random people and random things like I felt like I was flying a plane which I know may sound stupid
 
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Doesn't sound stupid to me, mine does the same, images in my mind are common and sometimes include self harm but images in my eyes seem beyond the abilities of mine thankfully.
 
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It sounds like you have a lot of anxiety going on here too. Can they not increase your meds to help you? I know, meds aren't the answer for everything, but they are a useful help for us all. I too see my "attacker" and feel him touching me at times. Its really scary.
 
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