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chris232
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- Dec 20, 2009
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Here is what I've been struggling with for the past twelve weeks. I hope that somebody can help because I'm at my wits end.
Twelve weeks ago I went out with my friends and had a lot of alcohol. As the night was drawing to a close, my friends and I smoked a couple of strong joints. I regret this. This was on a Saturday night – Sunday morning, and I was starting a new job on Monday. I didn't get home till 6am, and couldn't sleep. I had a massive panic attack, and totally freaked out. Since then, my life has not been the same.
I woke up the next day still feeling stoned. I couldn't shake the feeling. Since then, I experienced what can only be called 'derealization'. Feelings of;
Feeling spaced out / not connected.
Emotional numbness.
Like I'm there, and I can interact / be funny as usual, but it's like it's happening on auto.
TIME - this is a big one for me - it seems that time has little meaning.
Poor memory - I actually thought my car had been stolen today, but the place where I was looking for it was where I parked it yesterday.
Visual disturbances (black mark out the corner of my eye)
Not hungry / thirsty when i know I should be.
So, I had that for a heck of a long time (probably not too long in comparison to some of you lovely lot
). So, I decided that I would try and do something about it so I've been taking Rhodiola Rosea – a herb which is meant to help with the mind's functions.
Since then I've come back to reality, but I'm having a real hard time. I still feel like I'm losing my mind, and that I could just drop out of existance at any moment.
If you read that far, thank-you.
I'd just like to know what I should do really. Is it possible for people to just go insane - never to return to normal society and to be locked up?
I just want to know whether it's actually possible to lose your mind?
Please help
Twelve weeks ago I went out with my friends and had a lot of alcohol. As the night was drawing to a close, my friends and I smoked a couple of strong joints. I regret this. This was on a Saturday night – Sunday morning, and I was starting a new job on Monday. I didn't get home till 6am, and couldn't sleep. I had a massive panic attack, and totally freaked out. Since then, my life has not been the same.
I woke up the next day still feeling stoned. I couldn't shake the feeling. Since then, I experienced what can only be called 'derealization'. Feelings of;
Feeling spaced out / not connected.
Emotional numbness.
Like I'm there, and I can interact / be funny as usual, but it's like it's happening on auto.
TIME - this is a big one for me - it seems that time has little meaning.
Poor memory - I actually thought my car had been stolen today, but the place where I was looking for it was where I parked it yesterday.
Visual disturbances (black mark out the corner of my eye)
Not hungry / thirsty when i know I should be.
So, I had that for a heck of a long time (probably not too long in comparison to some of you lovely lot
). So, I decided that I would try and do something about it so I've been taking Rhodiola Rosea – a herb which is meant to help with the mind's functions. Since then I've come back to reality, but I'm having a real hard time. I still feel like I'm losing my mind, and that I could just drop out of existance at any moment.
If you read that far, thank-you.
I'd just like to know what I should do really. Is it possible for people to just go insane - never to return to normal society and to be locked up?
I just want to know whether it's actually possible to lose your mind?
Please help
