Really need someone to talk too

[Cal]

That sounds like a difficult cycle, you shut down to avoid upsetting anyone and then feel you've upset them by shutting down. Always start by just being you, whatever that is

 

[KitKat90]

He has had health anxiety before, so I know he understands it to some extent. But I don’t think he really understands what it’s like to have it everyday. It wears you down physically and mentally.

 

[KitKat90]

I did try and talk to him about us both doing therapy. I thought it would help but he doesn’t want to do it. He hasn’t been involved in any appointments with the psychiatrist or therapist. It makes me feel like I am on my own sometimes.

 

[KitKat90]

It’s not easy for him. I get it.

 

[KitKat90]

Cal, Thanks so much for tonight. You helped pull me out of where I was at tonight.

 

[Cal]

You're most welcome, I'm really glad I could be there for you!!

 

[Cal]

I can see why you would feel on your own but you're not, and I really hope that one day soon he'll rethink the idea of going with you because I think it's a great one

 

[KitKat90]

I hope he will reconsider the idea of therapy. I think it would help our relationship. I’m getting very sleepy . Which is a good for me. My sleep is horrible. Hope to talk to you again Goodnight.

 

[Cal]

Good go sleep and sleep well!!

 

[warnerc987]

Hey KitKat. I hope your doing ok.... I know what it’s like. I do. And all I can do is sympathize with you and validate your feelings are real and hurt. But you do not have to act on them..... you are doing good by coming on here and posting about the urge to self harm and not self harm..... your doing great

 

[Kmw]

Hi KitKat
I understand exactly how you feel and so will a lot of people on this forum. I know what it’s like to feel hopeless, useless, a mother that can’t be there mentally for your kids. My husband left which was tough. I too have bad depression, anxiety and find it hard to leave home. I don’t have any answers right now, but just know that there are a lot of lovely and caring people on this forum so let it all out and I know you will get some lovely replies. Try to stay strong. And know that people care about you.