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coraline1664
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I'm at the lowest I've been in a while... I can hardly go out and have to wait in for my partner to come to mine. He and his friend knocked on the door, it's was way out of my comfort zone. Everything went into a blur and I couldn't control what I was saying, I couldn't think to reply to anyhting, I felt as if I was going to pass out. I find it really hard to describe the panic now it's even worse than the panic attacks I've had before. They had come so my partner could tell me he was staying out for a while. They were laughing too which was making me very paranoid. I think they were a bit drunk but I just didn't know.. I wish I could explain to my partner how putting me on the spot like that puts me into shock... I'm so angry and sad... and humiliated I didn't have a clue what I was doing. I am going hungry again today as well because I couldn't buy any food.
I just don't know what to do I've felt so separated from ym partner recently, he doesn't really understand me anymore I don't think and I can't give him proper attention or go out places with him. He always talks about the same things and I don't even say much at all.
I'm tortured by my own feelings at the moment.. I don't know what I can do and I just can't explain accuurately how I'm feeling to anyone it is as if something is controlling what comes out of my mouth. I don't know how I can even feel panic like that..
I'm sorry that this is quite jumbled.. I am doing my best to make it make sense
I just don't know what to do I've felt so separated from ym partner recently, he doesn't really understand me anymore I don't think and I can't give him proper attention or go out places with him. He always talks about the same things and I don't even say much at all.
I'm tortured by my own feelings at the moment.. I don't know what I can do and I just can't explain accuurately how I'm feeling to anyone it is as if something is controlling what comes out of my mouth. I don't know how I can even feel panic like that..
I'm sorry that this is quite jumbled.. I am doing my best to make it make sense
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