I'm a recent college graduate who has been in a constant battle with depression for over a decade. I've been applying to jobs since March and still can't land anything beyond a waitressing gig. I attended a top 50 university and graduated with a 3.8 GPA. The negative responses and lack of interviews have sent me spiraling. As I said before I've had depression for a while now, but job searching has me feeling incredibly useless and suicidal, more so than usual. It's hard to not throw in the towel and give into my suicidal thoughts. All I want to do is find purpose or find an employer who is willing to take a chance on me but it feels like I'm meant to have the same side jobs I had in high school. I won't amount to anything, so I feel like I must go. I just don't know what to do anymore.