Really Hurting

[alwaystrying]

I'm a recent college graduate who has been in a constant battle with depression for over a decade. I've been applying to jobs since March and still can't land anything beyond a waitressing gig. I attended a top 50 university and graduated with a 3.8 GPA. The negative responses and lack of interviews have sent me spiraling. As I said before I've had depression for a while now, but job searching has me feeling incredibly useless and suicidal, more so than usual. It's hard to not throw in the towel and give into my suicidal thoughts. All I want to do is find purpose or find an employer who is willing to take a chance on me but it feels like I'm meant to have the same side jobs I had in high school. I won't amount to anything, so I feel like I must go. I just don't know what to do anymore.

 

[InfiniteRectangles]

I understand how you feel, but please don't give up. I just recently had to drop out of college due to money issues and I'm having trouble finding work. I had planned to go back in the spring but I can't if I can't get the money. I've applied everywhere, but I've never had a job before and everyone wants someone with experience. I just feel stuck, and I know you must be feeling the same way. I also feel like I'll amount to nothing, but I tell myself that I'm young and I still have my whole life ahead of me. You will find something, even if it takes a while. You may have to work some jobs you hate in the meantime to make ends meet, but don't give up looking for work that you truly want to do.

 

[JCPraha]

Job searching is not easy on a person's mental state. There are typically a long series of disappointments before something reasonable comes up. You are young and obviously quite intelligent. Persistence is the key, and trying to manage your mental state. If one becomes discouraged, it makes things very difficult.

I sounds like you have many positive attributes. Don't allow the rejections from the job search to lower your self-esteem. You have value, regardless of your current state of employment.

 

[alwaystrying]

Job searching is not easy on a person's mental state. There are typically a long series of disappointments before something reasonable comes up. You are young and obviously quite intelligent. Persistence is the key, and trying to manage your mental state. If one becomes discouraged, it makes things very difficult.

I sounds like you have many positive attributes. Don't allow the rejections from the job search to lower your self-esteem. You have value, regardless of your current state of employment.

This was very kind of you to write, and I could always use the positivity. I just looked back at this 2 months later for a pick me up, so thank you.

 

[alwaystrying]

hi there. thank you for reaching out. i admire your positive outlook despite your struggles. i, too, find myself saying it's okay because I am young right now, but sometimes that isn't a good enough answer for my anxious brain. i hope things are looking up for you, and if you ever want to talk to get things off your chest let me know and i will give you one of my social media handles. keep on grinding, we can do this.

 

[Seany53]

3.8 GPA from a top 50 University. Please dear God don't even think of suicide. I don't think I can say anything else better than how others have said it. Good job on the GPA and YOU ARE NOT THE PROBLEM. its the Fucking job market that demands 10 years exp right outta uni. That's blows! But you're awesome

 

[JCPraha]

How are you doing? Have things improved for you? You have a lot to offer. I am sure things will work out well. You will find some work. Maintaining your mental state and avoiding discouragement is most important. Send me one of your social media handles and I will message you. Take care of yourself. Whether you have a job or not, being in a good mental state is most important. How things go in life tend to mirror one's state of mind. Take care.