Really could do with some help !!! TRIGGER

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Firstly this could be a trigger to some people.

On 06/05/12 I took an overdose, i ended up going to hospital on the 07/05/12, i was put on a drip because i did server damange to my liver, which finished last night, i was sent home and asked to attend the hospital again today for more blood results as my liver function was still bad, so i went back today had the tests, got the results was told there was some improvement.

Now the problem i have is that i have really strong urges to do it again, what should i do, my cpn told me today if i told here i was going to she would have to act so i avoided the question.

How i feel atm i really have no care in the world as to what it could do to me.

I hope this has not broken the rules, when i last posted for help my thread was deleted.
 
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What is making you feel that you don't care what happens to you?
Why do you want to do it again...have you been triggered by something?

Keep talking here if you feel you can.

qf.
 
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Everything i had i lost 4yrs ago i had a miscarriage the baby would have been 4 by now, this all started friday when i went to my friends 4yr olds birthday tea, i could cope, and yeserday was the first court hearing for my divorce, its something i wanted but hard to cope with. If i have nothing whats the point on life.

Sorry to go on.
 
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Sorry to hear your in a bad place atmo.

Your CPN would only act as she is worried about your safety.
What has triggered this of, and and originally? Is it the same thing or something different?

Do you have someone you can trust you can tell how your feeling, or someone you can be around until the urge passes/subsides a bit, to help get you through the night?

Keep posting x
 
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sorry posted at same time you just answered what triggered it!

So sorry to hear about your loss. it must have been really hard for you to attend, that shows how strong you are. It also shows you have friends, who you clearly care for, and they care for you, you have friends and that shows you have something worth holding on for x
 
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I dont have anyone i could talk to, no one would be able to help me. Im alone at home. Will try and leep posting.
 
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Do you feel able to contact your CPN, do you have a crisis team you can call?
 
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I cant talk to here about it, when she found out she was expecting she rubbed it in, even tho she knew what had happen, im not that strong, i couldnt stay was there 5 mins as couldnt manage anymore. She says she there to help but as soon as i do anything to my self she dont talk to me for a few days.
 
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My CPN is visiting me 2mro lunch time, i do have the crisis team number but i dont feel they listen or understand.
 
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How about smaritians? i cant spell!!

Or doing something to distract yourself, go to a shop, watch a film, pop to the gym?!
 
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I've taken some of my meds to help me but its not working. I have never tried ringing them, but have been told they are not very good.
 
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I've not used but them but have heard the opposit, surely its worth a try, you can always hang up if there crap! .....?!
 
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Hey sacaredAndbroken, just thought i'd check in to tell you i ended up calling the crisis team, so i guess i did make a postive step.

Now i find my self wondering what to do, i have abdo pain in my stomach going through to my back, could this be because of the recent overdose?
 
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Well done for ringing the crisis team hun! That was a huge step in the right direction :) I am sorry that you felt the need to od though, though am glad your bloods are improving :) We can actually say whether it was due to the od or not as were not medically trained. But you can and i recommend that you either book a appointment with your gp or go back to A&E. Just to be sure :)
xx
 
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The crisis team were not much help, as usual. I have spoken to NHS Direct about abdo pain they said to see the gp. Luckly i have an apt booked in this week.

Today is going to be crap, i feel like s**t already, and its only 10am. Am still tired after only having 2 1/2 hrs sleep.
 
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Having a really bad day, server urges to SH or OD. Don't know how much longer I can manage without.
 
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Hiya

Could you go straight to A&E? Most have someone from psych on call. Please keep talking on here. What's going through your mind right now?

Sarah Xx
 
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I feel I have no point in living, and everything I had I've lost. What's the point when I have nothing.
 

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