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2tired3care
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I have had my job threatened because I want to do it well.
I have to rely on a co-worker, who is best friends with the boss, so when she does not meet a deadline, I am made to suffer and then when I complain to the boss, I am in trouble and considered unprofessional.
When I try to speak with my one source of support, (my husband), he says I am too passionate and that I should just forget about it.
If I could just drop it, my life would be easier, but as a Quality Analyst, attention to detail and deadlines are critical to the job.
I am on antidepressants, Xanax, Clonozepam, and have just had Lexapro added.
Now my Dr has recommended a psychologist, and I simply do not want to spend the rest of my life with a psychologist. I have had very bad experiences with them, and really do not want to do this for the rest of my life.
I consider them to be the kind of doctors that never cure, just keep making appointments, and I am not made of money, especially if I lose my job.
I am overly conscious about Meds, as I have had family members become addicted to prescription drugs, but finally ready for one that will take me to a place where I care about nothing anymore.
In the last 4 years, I have lost my Mom, my Dad, a grandchild, all 3 of my sisters, my home, and all 3 of my children do not have time for me.
The hurt is just too much and if I lose my job, because I cannot tolerate someone who sucks up and refuses to do their job and making me the fall guy, I just think that will be the last straw.
So, based on what my boss and husband say, if I am too passionate, it is time to stop feeling anything, and if I cannot find a medication for it, there is always alchohol.
Any advise, because I am out of options.
I have to rely on a co-worker, who is best friends with the boss, so when she does not meet a deadline, I am made to suffer and then when I complain to the boss, I am in trouble and considered unprofessional.
When I try to speak with my one source of support, (my husband), he says I am too passionate and that I should just forget about it.
If I could just drop it, my life would be easier, but as a Quality Analyst, attention to detail and deadlines are critical to the job.
I am on antidepressants, Xanax, Clonozepam, and have just had Lexapro added.
Now my Dr has recommended a psychologist, and I simply do not want to spend the rest of my life with a psychologist. I have had very bad experiences with them, and really do not want to do this for the rest of my life.
I consider them to be the kind of doctors that never cure, just keep making appointments, and I am not made of money, especially if I lose my job.
I am overly conscious about Meds, as I have had family members become addicted to prescription drugs, but finally ready for one that will take me to a place where I care about nothing anymore.
In the last 4 years, I have lost my Mom, my Dad, a grandchild, all 3 of my sisters, my home, and all 3 of my children do not have time for me.
The hurt is just too much and if I lose my job, because I cannot tolerate someone who sucks up and refuses to do their job and making me the fall guy, I just think that will be the last straw.
So, based on what my boss and husband say, if I am too passionate, it is time to stop feeling anything, and if I cannot find a medication for it, there is always alchohol.
Any advise, because I am out of options.