- Apr 12, 2018
I have nothing to live for EVERYONE i EVER cared about lied to me and abandoned me my ONLY dream will never come true I'm ready to die Goodbye forever
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Wattpad is useless.I don't want this to become a repeat of the last thread
If you want help, you need to listen and take in what other people are saying, if you want to achieve your dream you'll have to work on it instead of expecting someone else to hand it to you. The whole point of settings goals in life is to work on it, they are a long term thing.
I am sorry you are feeling suicidal again, as this seems to be happening on a regular basis you should maybe try talking to a therapist or someone as soon as you can. Maybe call or email Samaritans:
As for your dream, like I suggested in your last thread, Wattpad is a good site to start and get advice from fellow writers.
The mentality you have of thinking people hate you isn't true, I think you just have high expectations of people, but that doesn't mean people don't care or aren't willing to help. It is just that we can't give you all the resources you need in life and for your dream, there are parts of life you need to be able to work on yourself to achieve what you want.
This forum is also still here for you for when you are struggling, but like I've already said you need to be willing to listen to us, instead of throwing things back in our faces
You need to try and be open again to looking for a therapist, not all therapists you're going to trust and click with, but you need to keep searching rather than give up.Wattpad is useless.
I do not trust therapists. The suicide hotline and the Samaritans are also useless.
On Monday night, H promised she would talk to me about story ideas on Tuesday. It is now Wednesday. H, of course, refused to fulfill her promises.
I just can't take it anymore. Literally every single person on the entire planet constantly abandons. It doesn't matter how nice I am, they will either just abandon me outright or possibly even worse, constantly lie about it for no apparent reason than to get a sick kick out of my disappointment. That appears to be the case with H.
Do you want to know WHY I didn't talk about suicide or depression last night? Because of H. I was gullible enough to think that maybe, just fucking maybe, somebody in my life would follow through with their promises and we'd get to talk later that night and I'd have a reason to not contemplate suicide.
And once again, I'm disappointed and more upset that ever because I was stupid enough to allow myself to believe another person's lies. But without that brief, naive moment of hope, is there anything to live for? As far as I see, no.
If she is "so busy", why did she make that promise to me in the first place? And she's not the only one, not by a long shot. All throughout my life, I've been lied to, and the ones lying to me ALWAYS express offense at the thought that I would hold them to their promises. Is it common for "friends" to just constantly lie and break promises to another? Am I being too demanding by actually expecting people to do what they say?You need to try and be open again to looking for a therapist, not all therapists you're going to trust and click with, but you need to keep searching rather than give up.
Like I've already said, you can't rely on other people to help you achieve your dreams, maybe He
has been busy so couldn't get back to you, either way you shouldn't jump to conclusions like that...
Not everyone can and will always be there for you, people have their own life and goals to focus on, so you shouldn't take it so personally if someone for whatever reason isn't able to help you as much as you wish they could