
Clarityofthought
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Hi I just thought I would post in here even though I've been a member for a while. I have now changed my name and don't want to mention my old name as two people close to me found me on here and it was not so good. I guess it helps having those somebody's knowing my problems - but i was just embarrassed! Anyway, basically, I am battling PND again (2nd child/2nd time) although i have had normal depression many times. I am currently taking SJW's after a course of a/d's started to fail me. I have had two big marital problems lately - which have tested my mental strength to the hilt!! One just today!! I don't know how we are getting through it but somehow we are. Lately, I have lost my appetite. I lost about 1 1/2 st through diet and exercise. But now since the first marital problem I just lost my appetite! I'm still only just in the obese range though, so I don't mind! I'm sure it's just nerves. I've had loadsa blood and urine tests lately so I'm sure it's not a health problem.
Anyway, thankyou all for still being here. I hope i can find some help here. I have no-one else to turn to. My mum has become distant since my marital problems - perhaps she thinks i made my bed..... And friends, well, what friends?
Oh, I am still battling self-harm. I forgot to mention that. I haven't done it since Xmas, but it's hard not to. However, sometimes i just want to cut REAL deep. It's like the shallow cuts are nothing now so I don't bother. But sometimes i go CRAZY with longing to feel better inside my head!
Well, please say hi so I don't feel so alone in this world!
Thanks!! 
Anyway, thankyou all for still being here. I hope i can find some help here. I have no-one else to turn to. My mum has become distant since my marital problems - perhaps she thinks i made my bed..... And friends, well, what friends?
Oh, I am still battling self-harm. I forgot to mention that. I haven't done it since Xmas, but it's hard not to. However, sometimes i just want to cut REAL deep. It's like the shallow cuts are nothing now so I don't bother. But sometimes i go CRAZY with longing to feel better inside my head!
Well, please say hi so I don't feel so alone in this world!

