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jungy
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- Nov 8, 2009
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hi i got diagnosed about 5 year ago i am on 1750 mg a day on depakote i was on olazapine but make me very anxious i saw my consultant last week he put me on promazine but i dont think ive told him everything at the moment im very low anxious and agitated dont want see anyone any little thing stressies me
at the meeting with my consultant and support workers i was scared to leave because i think they be talking about me on the way to the chemist i saw this guy i know who is also ill coming out of the chemist i thought the workers had a plot to check on me i have friends round they make me a coffee i think they put something in it i get all paniky other week my m8 send me his song and i work on music like a mc and the lyrics was (you will never make it) i thought the song was all about me i was sat there crying sometimes i be crying and dancing at same time i was at my mums other day i thought she was evil i had stay away from her for a bit i felt very anxious... last night i was very anxious i rang the crisis team and explained then i was reading about illness then i started seeing like the girl from the exorcist etc in my head but i watched these films young and from a kid things have always scared me then the puppits from the sesame street laughing at me but when im high i dont get any of these symptoms i just feel great like top of the world does anyone think i got bipolar with phycotic features? its horrible but i cope well and never ever hurt anyone
at the meeting with my consultant and support workers i was scared to leave because i think they be talking about me on the way to the chemist i saw this guy i know who is also ill coming out of the chemist i thought the workers had a plot to check on me i have friends round they make me a coffee i think they put something in it i get all paniky other week my m8 send me his song and i work on music like a mc and the lyrics was (you will never make it) i thought the song was all about me i was sat there crying sometimes i be crying and dancing at same time i was at my mums other day i thought she was evil i had stay away from her for a bit i felt very anxious... last night i was very anxious i rang the crisis team and explained then i was reading about illness then i started seeing like the girl from the exorcist etc in my head but i watched these films young and from a kid things have always scared me then the puppits from the sesame street laughing at me but when im high i dont get any of these symptoms i just feel great like top of the world does anyone think i got bipolar with phycotic features? its horrible but i cope well and never ever hurt anyone