Random hypomania occuring at weird times? Whats going on :s

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Ok well I'm not *COMPLETELEY* sure I have bipolar, my doctors disagree, 2 say I have, but my community pdoc and psychologists think it's more likely unipolar depression, because they've never seen my manic or hypomanic. However, I'm pretty sure I have been hypomanic several times, and have had one episode of mania (ended in me crashing down, trying to kill myself and getting a lovely 2 month stay in hospital).

Anyway, I've been feeling depressed for about 8 months urgh. But at random times, I keep getting what I can only describe as "headrushes". All my thoughts go fast, I get this AMAZING swooping feeling, I start moving really quick and talking fast it's like I get a sudden rush of energy. Almost all my depression goes away and I feel invincible and like I can do anything. Sometimes I do stupid things, and I plan stupid things to do, e.g running away, putting myself in bad situations etc.

It's like when I was hypomanic...EXCEPT it only lasts about half an hour then it goes! This is why I'm unsure as to what it is before, I would be hypomanic for hours or days, longest was over a week.

Anyone know whats happening? I'm not on any meds or anything and I'm not doing anything differently. Its happening as I'm writing this

 

[getting better]

Sounds like Bipolar to me. Maybe best to have a word with your Dr, he should be able to prescribe something to help.

 

[emski]

Rapid mood changes? Not sure, worth mentioning next time you have an appointment, especially if it is happening frequently.

I absolutely love your signature by the way

 

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Yeah I'll talk to my doc about it, it's really strange, it's never happened like this before, I'm kind of worried Emski, thanks btw

 

[emski]

Try not to worry all you can do is try and ride it out

 

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thanks I guess it's all part of the unpredictability of bipolar

 

[getting better]

It's definitely unpredictable. I can go from high to low and vice versa in seconds. Sometimes lasts for days, sometimes lasts for minutes.

 

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Yeah it is :\ I wish I knew for sure what was wrong with me, I can't tell if im hypomanic or just not depressed