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gurltwitches
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i was diagonised with GAD when i was 15.
then i had a psy-eval done when i was 19 and he thought i had PTSD. i know why he thought that but i don't think so.
i was raped when i was 16, and i told him this.
he asked if i have nightmares, and i said yes.
he asked what about, and usually there about being raped or harmed. someone is always trying to hurt me.
he put the two together and came up with ptsd.
i don't see how though. maybe i didn't clarify enough.
see, i've had bad nightmares since i was little. way before the rape.
i've also had alot of other bad experiences with males but i've talked about all of them opening. when i think about them, i feel unclean and guilty but i don't think about them all the time or anything. i don't have vivid flashbacks or anything. so how does it all fit? how is that ptsd?
also, before any of my bad experiences (that i'm aware of) with men, i was leery of them. especially older males. and strangly, i don't remember alot of my childhood. it's like pieces are missing. there is one point where i don't remember my sister being around at all. it's like she disapeared or something. my father will tell stories and i have no idea what he is talking about. could i be repressing something or could just be a bad memory??
is it ptsd or gad? it doesn't really matter, i guess. i'm just curious.
then i had a psy-eval done when i was 19 and he thought i had PTSD. i know why he thought that but i don't think so.
i was raped when i was 16, and i told him this.
he asked if i have nightmares, and i said yes.
he asked what about, and usually there about being raped or harmed. someone is always trying to hurt me.
he put the two together and came up with ptsd.
i don't see how though. maybe i didn't clarify enough.
see, i've had bad nightmares since i was little. way before the rape.
i've also had alot of other bad experiences with males but i've talked about all of them opening. when i think about them, i feel unclean and guilty but i don't think about them all the time or anything. i don't have vivid flashbacks or anything. so how does it all fit? how is that ptsd?
also, before any of my bad experiences (that i'm aware of) with men, i was leery of them. especially older males. and strangly, i don't remember alot of my childhood. it's like pieces are missing. there is one point where i don't remember my sister being around at all. it's like she disapeared or something. my father will tell stories and i have no idea what he is talking about. could i be repressing something or could just be a bad memory??
is it ptsd or gad? it doesn't really matter, i guess. i'm just curious.