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Lycanthrope10s
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Hello, everyone.
This is my first time writing in this forum. I'm an 18 years old boy and i was recently diagnosed with pure OCD.
My OCD has affected every single part of my life and the guilt for my past mistakes is totally overwhelming. I think that the principal problem is with my sexuality.
I have had a couple of girlfriends in my lifetime and every single time we had something related to sex, I started feeling like a rapist, and the biggest sinner on earth. Even when the girls keep saying to me that I didn't do anything wrong, and they feel good with me, guilt is simply too big to handle.
For example, one time I was with a girl, and we started to kiss. After a while the situation started to get sexual and without reason, I started to feel like a monster (In a fact, I cried) and all that month I couldn't even look her in the eyes.
I'm very afraid of becoming a monster and my sexual life is practically destroyed due to my OCD, at the point I feel dirty when I masturbate.
I don't know what to do, I take my meds and go to therapy, but I feel like I'm cracking up.
Also, I have horrible thoughts related to Incest, Killing or raping someone, and I'm terrified of become one of the bad ones. Every time I have those thoughts I feel extremely anxious and guilt. One single thought can ruin all my day.
Thanks for reading, I hope that you and your loved ones are okay

This is my first time writing in this forum. I'm an 18 years old boy and i was recently diagnosed with pure OCD.
My OCD has affected every single part of my life and the guilt for my past mistakes is totally overwhelming. I think that the principal problem is with my sexuality.
I have had a couple of girlfriends in my lifetime and every single time we had something related to sex, I started feeling like a rapist, and the biggest sinner on earth. Even when the girls keep saying to me that I didn't do anything wrong, and they feel good with me, guilt is simply too big to handle.
For example, one time I was with a girl, and we started to kiss. After a while the situation started to get sexual and without reason, I started to feel like a monster (In a fact, I cried) and all that month I couldn't even look her in the eyes.
I'm very afraid of becoming a monster and my sexual life is practically destroyed due to my OCD, at the point I feel dirty when I masturbate.
I don't know what to do, I take my meds and go to therapy, but I feel like I'm cracking up.
Also, I have horrible thoughts related to Incest, Killing or raping someone, and I'm terrified of become one of the bad ones. Every time I have those thoughts I feel extremely anxious and guilt. One single thought can ruin all my day.
Thanks for reading, I hope that you and your loved ones are okay
