My intrusive thoughts lead me into saying or wishing stuff in my head to god that I would never ever want. It's scared me so much to a point my mind tricks me into thinking it's happening and that God will punish me anx karma will get me. I'm so depressed, I feel so hopeless because I would never want these things but I dont know what to do or where to get re assurance from that it won't happen. My mind slowly says that oh you're probably giving into this and that thought makes me shake everytime. I feel like it's my fault those things will happen if they do and I don't know how to explain to god that I don't want it im not like that but I feel so broken. I really don't wanna be going thru this, Im having such a hard time that I'm stuck in this loop. I been going through this for a while and when things felt like they were getting better this happens again. My minds really tricking me and I feel so scared that it will happen cause of me. Someone help me please.