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Sarabi_Gyarados
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Last year I lost my mother and my relationship.
My bf and I were long distance and I discovered he had been cheating on me really since we started dating (a year and a half.) I loved this man with my whole heart and he was a huge support to me during the loss of my mum.
When I discovered this news, something in me just changed.
I discovered he lied about being infertile, and got someone else pregnant. I had to take a pregnancy test and blood/urine/self-swab, all of which came back negative luckily.
It has been over a year since I lost my mum and 6 months since losing him and I feel flat, numb, sad, defeated, hopeless, paranoid. I don't trust or like people or see the point in anything. At times I feel suicidal and I often feel very angry. It feels unfair that I lost my mum. It feels cruel that the man I loved turned out to be a sociopath (by his own admission) and felt able to lie to me and put my life at risk just to have unprotected sex.
I don't know how to begin to get over the pain.
My bf and I were long distance and I discovered he had been cheating on me really since we started dating (a year and a half.) I loved this man with my whole heart and he was a huge support to me during the loss of my mum.
When I discovered this news, something in me just changed.
I discovered he lied about being infertile, and got someone else pregnant. I had to take a pregnancy test and blood/urine/self-swab, all of which came back negative luckily.
It has been over a year since I lost my mum and 6 months since losing him and I feel flat, numb, sad, defeated, hopeless, paranoid. I don't trust or like people or see the point in anything. At times I feel suicidal and I often feel very angry. It feels unfair that I lost my mum. It feels cruel that the man I loved turned out to be a sociopath (by his own admission) and felt able to lie to me and put my life at risk just to have unprotected sex.
I don't know how to begin to get over the pain.
