
thedreamswehad
Well-known member
I have been told I fit the criteria for borderline personality disorder, but cannot yet be diagnosed with it because I'm not 18. I have been on anti-psychotics for 3 years now which have helped massively, but I still have psychotic episodes.
Today was my last episode I was in a supermarket car park when I suddenly felt overwhelmed it feels like I'm not me and my vision of the world is distorted and confusing. I started screaming, crying, running around and falling over trying to find my way out of the car park but I couldn't because I was too confused. Thankfully my boyfriend was with me and he helped me as much as he could and helped me get home when I was less erratic because if I were on my own I would not have made it home. Last time I had a episode when I was alone I was arrested under the mental health act.
Does anyone else experience similar episodes? I know no one will probably know the answer but I'll ask anyway, how do i make these episodes stop? Also I don't seem to feel psychical pain during episodes, often I hurt myself deliberately or by falling over but it doesn't cause me any pain, I still feel it happen it just doesn't hurt. It's also the same with feeling the cold, I once ran outside at 1am on a freezing January night in just a vest and shorts but I didn't feel the cold at all, I actually felt very warm.
Its so frustrating, as I've left my college course because of these episodes and my first job I lost within a week because I had an episode at work. I feel like there is no hope for me to lead a normal life.
Thanks if you did read all of this, I try to make my posts as short as possible
Today was my last episode I was in a supermarket car park when I suddenly felt overwhelmed it feels like I'm not me and my vision of the world is distorted and confusing. I started screaming, crying, running around and falling over trying to find my way out of the car park but I couldn't because I was too confused. Thankfully my boyfriend was with me and he helped me as much as he could and helped me get home when I was less erratic because if I were on my own I would not have made it home. Last time I had a episode when I was alone I was arrested under the mental health act.
Does anyone else experience similar episodes? I know no one will probably know the answer but I'll ask anyway, how do i make these episodes stop? Also I don't seem to feel psychical pain during episodes, often I hurt myself deliberately or by falling over but it doesn't cause me any pain, I still feel it happen it just doesn't hurt. It's also the same with feeling the cold, I once ran outside at 1am on a freezing January night in just a vest and shorts but I didn't feel the cold at all, I actually felt very warm.

Its so frustrating, as I've left my college course because of these episodes and my first job I lost within a week because I had an episode at work. I feel like there is no hope for me to lead a normal life.
Thanks if you did read all of this, I try to make my posts as short as possible
