- Aug 16, 2019
My thoughts and feelings are very hard to explain but I'm going to do my best. I have been treated for anxiety for several years now. I used to have really bad panic attacks and really bad anxiety. I was put on Lexapro and BuSpar and it completely went away for about 4 years. then it all came back one day and they switch medications. I'm now on vibrate and I have been for almost a year. But it seems like my condition is slowly worsening. I can't stop thinking about it or thinking that something is wrong. I keep thinking things are wrong with the world and things are wrong with my mind. I literally feel like my brain is going to come oozing out of my ears one day. Some days I get strange thoughts that I'm in some kind of a fairytale place and I'm the only one dealing with these kinds of troubles. Things seem unfamiliar and my perception feels off. I can't stop obsessing over it and sometimes it gets really bad. I recently got put on a new medication called fluvoxamine for the obsessive thoughts. The third day of taking it I woke up and just felt insane! I thought my head was going to explode. I feel like my thoughts were all crossing each other and my brain was misfiring and it felt so weird. I don't physically hear voices or anything like that. My thoughts don't really tell me to do things or anything like that. I just feel like I'm going insane and that I'm going to be miserable for the rest of my life. I wish I could feel like I used to. I honestly don't know what's wrong with me. I have seen two psychiatrists and I have both diagnosed me with anxiety and depression. I don't know what to do because every single second of every single day I am constantly thinking about how that I am feeling and it is making life hard to live. I can't even think about going back to work tomorrow. It's going to be a living hell. Does this sound like psychosis, anxiety or something else? I don't know what I'm dealing with but I need help.