Hi Renee,
I've posted this elsewhere you asked, but in case you miss it - and/or in case other people find this info useful, I'm posting it again.
For more about my 'recovery' journey, you might want to see my postings in the 'Introduce yourself' section: 'Introducing... oneday', which are probably on the 2rd or 3rd page by now. Briefly, after a major breakdown in my early twenties, I took myself along to a psychoanalytic psychotherapist, eventually seeing several such therapists, both one-to-one and in groups, as well as therapists and counsellors practising other forms of therapy. Subsequently I undertook several years of study and training in psychotherapy and counselling myself (starting with a 10-week intro to counselling course at a local adult education institute), finally qualifying in a psychotherapeutic discipline which included training placements working within NHS psychiatric settings.
For the past 12 years or so I have worked, instead, for mental health service user/survivor run projects and organisations, including putting together the handbook I quoted from above, and, latterly, managing and working on an information helpline.
For myself, I can't imagine coming through all the distress and confusion in my life without having someone to go to regularly (at least weekly) who listened to me and who I felt accepted by, as well as gently challenged, to help me work out the whys and wherefores, the meanings, of my distress.
But I guess what I don't believe in doing, what I couldn't do, is recommend psychoanalysis for you, for anyone. This is because:
- Every person is different (and as I posted: different approaches suit different people at different times.)
And this includes:
- Every therapist is different (so I'd repeat what I posted: the most important thing is to choose someone you feel you can relate to and trust. - Trust that 'click', the kind of click you feel when you think 'I could be friends with this person'. But of course, being friends and/or trusting people may be something you find particularly difficult, if so, talk to the therapist about finding it difficult to trust them, about your anxieties, and see how you feel about how they handle it)
- Me seeing/talking too certain people and finding it useful, doesn't mean that someone else talking to other people is going to work for them, I couldn't recommend psychoanalysis for anyone any more than I could recommend what kind of music they’re going to like, or hobby is going to suit them - at least without knowing someone pretty well first).
I can understand that you are feeling pretty anxious about seeing the psychoanalyst. This is natural. I know it's easy for me to say, but why not just take the plunge - the one meeting at least - be curious about it? It’s a new adventure in your life. And remember you can talk to the therapist about your anxieties - that's all part and parcel of therapy, it's what you can learn a lot from.
And, again, I would recommend reading more about psychoanalysis/therapy if you are worried... and I've already posted the links to start to find some useful reading matter, including the Mind booklet on their site and the Mental Health Foundation booklet.
There are also lots of books in which people describe their experiences of psychotherapy. I’m picking two off my bookshelf – long time since I read them, but one is ‘One to One – Experiences of Psychotherapy’ by Rosemary Dinnage (ed) in which she presents 20 people’s various stories and (mixed) experiences; and ‘The Words To Say It’ by Marie Cardinal, an autobiographical novel about her experience of psychoanalysis, and considered something of a classic.

Anyway, I hope some of this helps.
Take care,
Oneday