- Dec 30, 2020
I have a new official diagnosis of BP1. I'm trying to figure out how I can manage to be productive at school. I go to college for music and psychology. It's always tempting to want to be manic to get my work done, but that's never sustainable and I know my loved ones never want to see me that way again. It started off enjoyable but then quickly got out of control and ended me up in the hospital. I've been dealing with a lot of depression lately as well. I just want to learn to deal with my life. I feel completely worthless and just unproductive all the time. It's exhausting.