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jugbandgirl
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Hi. I need somebody to talk to! everyone around me seems to get along in life just fine... making small talk and just instantly fitting in.
i've just finished my nursing course and after 5 weeks of holiday, began a new job in a hospital just three days ago. i already feel like i don't belong there and that people are already judging me, getting annoyed about me asking questions, thinking i've got no common sense.
i like to work on my own but it's a team environment everyone seems to enjoy that aspect of this particular ward (except me). i'm trying to be involved in getting to know people but i feel like they don't want me there... but then other people who have also started (on the same day as me!) seem to just belong straight away and this makes me so sad.
every job i've ever had has been like this, it seems to get worse every time. i want to be able to go to work everyday and look forward to talking to everyone and just getting the job done, as they say.
i don't think i'll ever belong here and already the thoughts pop into my head that i will give up and of course, that will mean that once again i have failed.
i take everything so personally... if someone smiles at me or gives me praise i am elated and my work performance shines... until that same person doesn't smile and i feel rejected, like a loser, left to wonder what i've done wrong and that i should ahve been more sceptical about that first smile.
i'm ever so aware that i come across as needy, nervous, seeking approval, and even more aware that these are all negative.
so i guess the point of this post is can anyone relate to not fitting in in their place of work?
how can i 'just be myself' when it constantly changes and i'm left not knowing even slightly what myself really is.
PLEASE HELP!!!!!
i've just finished my nursing course and after 5 weeks of holiday, began a new job in a hospital just three days ago. i already feel like i don't belong there and that people are already judging me, getting annoyed about me asking questions, thinking i've got no common sense.
i like to work on my own but it's a team environment everyone seems to enjoy that aspect of this particular ward (except me). i'm trying to be involved in getting to know people but i feel like they don't want me there... but then other people who have also started (on the same day as me!) seem to just belong straight away and this makes me so sad.
every job i've ever had has been like this, it seems to get worse every time. i want to be able to go to work everyday and look forward to talking to everyone and just getting the job done, as they say.
i don't think i'll ever belong here and already the thoughts pop into my head that i will give up and of course, that will mean that once again i have failed.
i take everything so personally... if someone smiles at me or gives me praise i am elated and my work performance shines... until that same person doesn't smile and i feel rejected, like a loser, left to wonder what i've done wrong and that i should ahve been more sceptical about that first smile.
i'm ever so aware that i come across as needy, nervous, seeking approval, and even more aware that these are all negative.
so i guess the point of this post is can anyone relate to not fitting in in their place of work?
how can i 'just be myself' when it constantly changes and i'm left not knowing even slightly what myself really is.
PLEASE HELP!!!!!
