- Jan 9, 2009
Let me start by explaining a little bit about myself. First of all, I am a male who is a senior in high school. For my whole life, I have never been able to feel real love. Not toward my parents, nor my siblings, nor anyone else. I never knew why and I never cared much. This continued until high school. Then I had a problem. I met someone and we became friends. However, as time went on more and more and I got to know this person, I began to think about them all the time. Eventually, I would want to see them all the time. There were other strange and unusual feelings as well, but I eventually realized that I loved them. However, I had a major problem. This person was a boy. The thing that is strange is that I never wanted to have physical relations with this person, only "platonic" relations, if that makes any sense. I loved this person so much I could not imagine life without them. However let me explain even more. I was never really good friends with this person, I mean, I considered them my best friend but they did not consider me one of theirs really. Still, we were good friends. Then he started to do a lot of social things without me, and it made me feel rejected. Things gradually got worse and we grew apart. We were still friends, but then I decided to tell him how I felt for some stupid reason. He said it was ok but I could tell this was not good. Ever since then, he seems to be breaking almost all ties to me and possibly doing stranger things. We argue a lot over text messages now and tonight he basically told me that he didn't care about me at all. I realized this for a while, but this confirmation made me very sad and upset. Regardless, for a long time now, I have been severely depressed about the whole situation. I simply have no idea what to do. This issue is consuming my life. I can not imagine living without this person yet I know that I will probably never even really be friends with them again. Does anyone have any ideas about what I can do about his. Like I said, it's very weird but its all very true. Please, someone, help me.