Probably have depression/A little bit of a vent

[plumsadness]

So, for about two months now, my mood has changed dramatically and I've lost interest in many things. I don't know if it's depression or not, I had bouts like this before in the past but not for this long.

- College is not what it's cracked up to me, in truth I hate it and don't see much of an outcome from it. Also, I'm so sick of being reminded about this group chat that I didn't sign up for. I'm not interested in making friends or whatever because with my luck, they'll just leave and stab me in the back off the school chat. It's different here and in these Discord servers I'm in, I doubt I'll see anyone outside of them plus nobodies looking for anything from me.
- I hate drawing, it's just a chore and I'm not good at it at all. I used to love it and it comforted me but now, it just frustrates the hell out of me. The only reason I'll draw is for college, I'm going for a graphic design degree.
- I've come to the realization that not only do I hate my family, I generally don't care about any of them. I'm just the servant/pet feeder, nobody has ever given a damn about me but I'm suppose to care about their problems. I don't think so, that naïve person they once knew has grown up and doesn't want to hear it.

 

[Moody Blues]

Vent? No thanks. The last time I vented in a peer gathering I got so nasty that the admin decided to kick me out of that group. Then one of the admin, and she had power over my other two support groups, had me expelled from those as well.

When I vented I was really, and I mean really, in a black place - a dire state of very severe bipolar depression. My venting was over-the-top and I was left without a single support group, they were all gone!

So please excuse me if I don't ever vent again. I'll find alternative means to release my tension. Thank you for your understanding.

 

[Daringdan]

plumsadness,
I used to draw when I was young but now I can't muster the interest anymore. Maybe some day the spark will return. With your family, a lot of families still don't know the basics of loving each other rightly; sorry you got to go through that.
If you are going through unprecedented change I recommend seeking help. Help can mean multiple things, one of those is seeking out a psychiatrist and therapist if you don't have them already. It's good to catch any conditions you might be developing early. Having a support network of people who can really listen to you is another. And it is good that you post here.

 

[Am33]

You aren't alone 10 of millions of young people
are feeling the same and they don't know why ? Because the next step in growth in humanity is focusing on the mind . That's why there is so much mental illness out there .People aren't getting the tools they need to do that .That's the shift that's meant to happen .

 

[Msy]

So, for about two months now, my mood has changed dramatically and I've lost interest in many things. I don't know if it's depression or not, I had bouts like this before in the past but not for this long.

- College is not what it's cracked up to me, in truth I hate it and don't see much of an outcome from it. Also, I'm so sick of being reminded about this group chat that I didn't sign up for. I'm not interested in making friends or whatever because with my luck, they'll just leave and stab me in the back off the school chat. It's different here and in these Discord servers I'm in, I doubt I'll see anyone outside of them plus nobodies looking for anything from me.
- I hate drawing, it's just a chore and I'm not good at it at all. I used to love it and it comforted me but now, it just frustrates the hell out of me. The only reason I'll draw is for college, I'm going for a graphic design degree.
- I've come to the realization that not only do I hate my family, I generally don't care about any of them. I'm just the servant/pet feeder, nobody has ever given a damn about me but I'm suppose to care about their problems. I don't think so, that naïve person they once knew has grown up and doesn't want to hear it.

I think you should speak to your doctor about how you are feeling.

About 1 in 3 people go theough depression in their lives and getting some medical help whilst you are is the best thing you can do for yourself right now.

Loosing interest in things you were once passionate about is a big sign. Ince you speak to your doctor and get a bit of help and feel a bit better you will be in the mind set to make a decision about what you want to do about these things.

Maybe you will like college more then but if you dont then its perfectly acceptable as it really isnt for everyone.

Maybe the anger youre feeling to your family is a sign but if not then youre well within your rights to not speak to them.

You don't need to join a group chat you dont want to be in and if youre feeling like this right now its actually for the best that you dont. Youll just be putting pressure on yourself for no reason