- Apr 14, 2021
Since I was young I've struggled with body image and disordered eating, and by the time I was 16 these habits developed into anorexia. I'm 25 now and I've worked on myself a lot since that time in my life, but now I find that I might be struggling with binge eating disorder. When these urges strike I will become fixated on food, but also my thoughts toward myself become negative (you're disgusting, why can't you control yourself, etc...). The anxiety spirals until I feel as though I have no choice but to eat (even though I am not hungry) and end up eating way too much in an attempt to curb that anxiety. After that, I almost always feel terrible and as though I am the worst. Does anyone here have any experience with these feelings and how do you cope with it? I am just feeling very lost and out of control right now.