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Post suicide attempt - what next?

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2 days ago I took an overdose. That's the last thing I remember although I did call an ambulance and the police came and broke my door down and I got taken to hospital. Next day, waited for hours with no-one talking to me except to take my blood pressure. Eventually saw some psych liason people who were lovely but could offer nothing as I was out of their catchment area. Now I don't know what to do. I don't feel better. The GP says I need to join groups and go out more but I don't do people. I avoid people. I've started some therapy but only had 2 sessions and obviously I got worse given what just happened. I've got bpd, depression, anxiety and an eating disorder and I have no idea how to get out of this place.
I've got one really good friend who I'm way too reliant on and I feel really bad for how much I rely on her. So then I push her away somehow thinking I am protecting her but then get totally panicked that she won't come back.
 
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Sorry to hear about your overdose, did the same last year and there wasn't much help at the hospital. I don't do people either, and it gets lonely. Finding this forum better than any therapy at the moment so big welcome and hug.
 
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Can you identify what emotions/reasons pushed you over to make the attempt?

Was it discussing painful things in therapy? If so, tell your therapist. You may be trying to do too much, too fast.

If you can identify the trigger, you can take steps to avoid it, temporarily.

In the meantime, do what gives you comfort. Avoid alcohol (it’s a depressant and further aggravates mood), and connect with the friend you trust. It’s ok to need her right now. If she’s been in your life a while, this is something she can handle. She would be devastated if you succeeded and didn’t reach out for help.

Once you start feeling stronger find a drop in group you can go to, like a book club. This type of activity let’s you be around people superficially without the invasive feeling that being with others can sometimes feel. It’s a simple way to ease into social interaction, where the topic is focused on a book, and not you. Plus you can easily leave if it gets overwhelming.

Right now you need to focus on you. You need to be your own rescue, and do things that make you feel more in control again.

If you feel you’re tipping back again, call paramedics or go into a hospital. Save you.
 
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Thank you for this. I do think perhaps I was trying to hard to get better quickly and yes, perhaps the therapy was too fast. I postponed my appointment with him yesterday but will talk to him tomorrow. As for the alcohol, I'm totally avoiding going to shops on my own as this is definitely a problem for me.
Thanks for the advice.
 
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2 days ago I took an overdose. That's the last thing I remember although I did call an ambulance and the police came and broke my door down and I got taken to hospital. Next day, waited for hours with no-one talking to me except to take my blood pressure. Eventually saw some psych liason people who were lovely but could offer nothing as I was out of their catchment area. Now I don't know what to do. I don't feel better. The GP says I need to join groups and go out more but I don't do people. I avoid people. I've started some therapy but only had 2 sessions and obviously I got worse given what just happened. I've got bpd, depression, anxiety and an eating disorder and I have no idea how to get out of this place.
I've got one really good friend who I'm way too reliant on and I feel really bad for how much I rely on her. So then I push her away somehow thinking I am protecting her but then get totally panicked that she won't come back.
Hi

Sorry that you felt taking an overdose was the only option, I know what it feels like to be in that head space as I have been there many times before myself and its really crappy. you did the right thing by calling for help but un fortunately the services let you down, sadly it sometimes takes drastic measures for someone to listen, not that I am saying you should do something even more drastic! Keep on with the therapy sessions and if things don't get better be persistant with your gp and say how mush you need the help and how hard you are finding things. If you ever want to chat then feel free to message me
 
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Im sorry to hear what you have been through. I remember waking up from my OD and not being happy that i had been saved and had survived. Its awful to people on the outside that i was not greatful, happy to be alive. It could not be further from the truth.

Over time you will rebuild yourself back up and put the pieces back together. I dont believe you can do this on your own, you do need support around you. Which isnt easy if you arent a people person.

The forum has been a great support to me in my times of need. When the NHS services are shut or unavailable. The forum is anonymous and you dont have to become friends with anyone if you dont want to. You can engage in as little or as much as you want.

I do believe in talking so please give it a try
Hugs
Fox
 
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Thanks everyone. I know what you mean Foxjo. I'm sorry it's not all over really although I guess I'm glad I haven't hurt other people again.
 
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Am so sorry you are struggling,
I know what its like friendship wise.
This time last year I shut everyone out,
Support worker even, though after my overdose they knew how bad things were.
I was no longer letting anyone know how bad things are.
I was so over people being concerned about me because it upsets me to see them upset for me!! I was over it.
I never though I would feel like that.
I was hurting enough that I finally decided I'm over other people being worried I'm so sick of it.
If my support worker hadnt stepped in and put me under the MHA I would be no longer here.
I shake my head it makes me sick in the stomach thinking I was almost there.
What I'm meaning to say its a privedge to be able to care for a friend and support them through these times.
Its a wonderful feeling knowing you made a difference.
Don't push your friend away, she clearly cares.
That's exactly what I was doing protecting them even my support worker and doctor from being concerned about me.
It doesn't need to be like that.
You need your friend
x
 
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Thanks megirl. It's a vicious cycle isn't it? I find I can't ever trust how I'm feeling because it changes so much.
My friend is amazing. I don't deserve her but am trying hard not to push her away.
 
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It can be a viscous cycle, it may not seem or feel like it but things will improve,truly,
You do deserve her she sounds like a true friend we all need someone like that,and its ok to let someone in.
It really is a priveledge to be there for someone, someone you love
 
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Well, the last time they came and assessed me,sent me home to my husband,who they assumed was the model husband lol
I didn't cope once I was home at all,rang my support worker first thing Monday ended up in the psych ward which was for the best
But that doesn't work for everyone.
Once I got home from my OD my husband came out of the blue and announced our marriage was over.
That's what pushed me almost over the edge that's why I was admitted.

The support of the staff and without any pressures or responsibilities got me back on my feet,
 
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Well, the last time they came and assessed me,sent me home to my husband,who they assumed was the model husband lol
I didn't cope once I was home at all,rang my support worker first thing Monday ended up in the psych ward which was for the best
But that doesn't work for everyone.
Once I got home from my OD my husband came out of the blue and announced our marriage was over.
That's what pushed me almost over the edge that's why I was admitted.

The support of the staff and without any pressures or responsibilities got me back on my feet,
Thanks for sharing that.
 
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Its all a process,
And sadly things take time, be great if there was a magic wand truly,I have looked and looked and looked again,infuriatingly I havnt been able to find the damn thing,
Be patient,be kind to yourself, you deserve all the help and support you can get xx

I have found coming on the forum to vent or receive support has helped me
through some of those difficult times where I just need that anonymity
 
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I am an impatient person, especially with myself. Am only just coming to terms with this condition really even though I was diagnosed years ago. I refused all treatment until recently.
I am getting to grips with the taking time thing.
This forum is great. I'm finding it helpful to read, and talk to, people who truly understand.
 
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