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IWILLOBTAINMENTALHEALTH

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If I lose my only source on income and I'm forced to move back in with my abusive mother I will kill myself! :cry2: I hope that doesn't happen! :panic: I can't believe what a loser and a failure I have become! I had such great potential before my mind sicknesses fd me up! I would just be homeless but my physical injury would prevent me from surviving on the streets! I hope I can stay living in my own apartment! I would rather live! :eek2: Sorry just had to get this off my shoulders.
 
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Hi iWILLOBTAINMENTALHEALTH :) i'm glad you wrote. I would have strong feelings about a situation where you might lose your income and be forced back with your toxic family. God, I'd be frantic. It's not your fault that you have become the person you currently are; I think that all the time, like how could I have totally missed out on my potential as a human being ?? I could not manage being homeless either with my physical disability. So I mean to say I relate to you and I surely relate to wanting to stay in your current home. If you want to talk about it some more just write. I'd be curious as to what source of income is under threat. My only income is SSI and food stamps.
 
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Hi iWILLOBTAINMENTALHEALTH :) i'm glad you wrote. I would have strong feelings about a situation where you might lose your income and be forced back with your toxic family. God, I'd be frantic. It's not your fault that you have become the person you currently are; I think that all the time, like how could I have totally missed out on my potential as a human being ?? I could not manage being homeless either with my physical disability. So I mean to say I relate to you and I surely relate to wanting to stay in your current home. If you want to talk about it some more just write. I'd be curious as to what source of income is under threat. My only income is SSI and food stamps.
Thank you Poopy Doll
It means so much to me that you cared so much to respond. My only income is S.S.I. They kicked me off and I'm waiting for a hearing to keep my benefits going. I used to be able to work, go to school, volunteer, and do martial arts before my mental illnesses and injury ruined my life. I even have a year of college under my belt. The person at the Department of Rehabilitation told me that I am too unfit to work when I tried to get a job. I am a total loser and failure. I will kill myself if I lose and am subject to my moms abuse again. I called the cops on her for abusing me before and they did nothing to help me. My mother abused me physically, sexually, verbally, and financially. She is evil. She abused all of her kids. My dad never abused me but he is very racist, sexist, and homophobic/transphobic like my mom is. My dad abused my older brother and was never there for my younger sister. My mom flat out DENISE everything! :curseyou: :stomp: Least my dad had the niceness to apologize for what he did! They are toxic! I can't go back! :panic: :cry2: :cry2:
 
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Thank you Poopy Doll
It means so much to me that you cared so much to respond. My only income is S.S.I. They kicked me off and I'm waiting for a hearing to keep my benefits going. I used to be able to work, go to school, volunteer, and do martial arts before my mental illnesses and injury ruined my life. I even have a year of college under my belt. The person at the Department of Rehabilitation told me that I am too unfit to work when I tried to get a job. I am a total loser and failure. I will kill myself if I lose and am subject to my moms abuse again. I called the cops on her for abusing me before and they did nothing to help me. My mother abused me physically, sexually, verbally, and financially. She is evil. She abused all of her kids. My dad never abused me but he is very racist, sexist, and homophobic/transphobic like my mom is. My dad abused my older brother and was never there for my younger sister. My mom flat out DENISE everything! :curseyou: :stomp: Least my dad had the niceness to apologize for what he did! They are toxic! I can't go back! :panic: :cry2: :cry2:
hi

if you make this known they will house you

they will not force you back to your abuser

Have you thought about reporting her to Police? They can be helpful, what you describe is known as Domestic Violence and kills far too many women a year.

I'm so sorry

hang in there, SCREAM for help

it might be time to let some family skeletons out of that closet - youre strong enough to protect yourself now.

:hug:
 
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hi

if you make this known they will house you

they will not force you back to your abuser

Have you thought about reporting her to Police? They can be helpful, what you describe is known as Domestic Violence and kills far too many women a year.

I'm so sorry

hang in there, SCREAM for help

it might be time to let some family skeletons out of that closet - youre strong enough to protect yourself now.

:hug:
I did report her to the police once when she threatened to hit me and they did nothing to help me. They didn't think that it was serious enough to protect an adult daughter from her mother I guess. I never reported her before or after that though. Who will house me if I report this? Please let me know. Who do I talk to? I do NOT want to go back to her ever! Thank you so very much BorderlineDownunder.
 
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I did report her to the police once when she threatened to hit me and they did nothing to help me. They didn't think that it was serious enough to protect an adult daughter from her mother I guess. I never reported her before or after that though. Who will house me if I report this? Please let me know. Who do I talk to? I do NOT want to go back to her ever! Thank you so very much BorderlineDownunder.
do you have a support worker?

either way go to your local major police who should ave a Domestic Violence Unit who you can at least discuss.

You allege some serious criminal activity, some serious abuse which you need to Get Out imho.

basically you're petrified of her. And no wonder.

Police will file the report. They will refer you to Support who can then help you get housing.

The more people you tell the stronger you become

I was horrified to read your post and so will others. What you describe is something you would not allow a dog to live in.

I relate btw. My mother was and still is a rotten cow. She could lie and hide what she did to me but she couldn't lie and hide how she treats her grandkids.

Truth will set you free my love. Get talking. There may even be something police can still charge her with, but at the very least they will assure you you are Not Deserving of this BS, also ive found once you have a police Report Number clutched in your hot little hand, everyone sits up and takes notice. It really does make a difference.

:hug:
 
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do you have a support worker?

either way go to your local major police who should ave a Domestic Violence Unit who you can at least discuss.

You allege some serious criminal activity, some serious abuse which you need to Get Out imho.

basically you're petrified of her. And no wonder.

Police will file the report. They will refer you to Support who can then help you get housing.

The more people you tell the stronger you become

I was horrified to read your post and so will others. What you describe is something you would not allow a dog to live in.

I relate btw. My mother was and still is a rotten cow. She could lie and hide what she did to me but she couldn't lie and hide how she treats her grandkids.

Truth will set you free my love. Get talking. There may even be something police can still charge her with, but at the very least they will assure you you are Not Deserving of this BS, also ive found once you have a police Report Number clutched in your hot little hand, everyone sits up and takes notice. It really does make a difference.

:hug:
Thank you BDU I do not have a support worker. I have a therapist and a psychiatrist though. Can they help? I hope I don't lose my appeal! Thank you for your advice. I'm glad you got away from that nasty abusive boyfriend you had a while ago. My parents would expect a husband to beat their daughters in line! They even said that before! I can't stand them! I wonder what I would do about my income then? This whole situation is totally fd up!
 
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My only thought had been a social worker or a case manager. If I were in your situation, I'd get one of those kind of people to work out a housing deal. I had a case manager once who was going to get me into government housing but instead I got a boyfriend with an income. LOL

My boyfriend had an old buddy who use to be his AA Sponsor. The guy got very ill with Parkinsons and back pain and lost his job at Motorola. He lost his apartment, all the contents, his car and his cat because the Social Security didn't come soon enough. He was told he wouldn't qualify for government housing unless he was homeless for a year !!! We took him into our house and didn't tell anyone he wasn't on the street. So I'm telling you this because being pissed off and suicidal is a waste of energy when you need to be getting your ducks in a row. Start making phone calls. I know, it's so annoying having a life of problems and then you spend all your time fixing problems. I'm very angry about my own problems.:stomp:
Is it that suicidal feelings are the opposite of being angry ?????
 
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My only thought had been a social worker or a case manager. If I were in your situation, I'd get one of those kind of people to work out a housing deal. I had a case manager once who was going to get me into government housing but instead I got a boyfriend with an income. LOL

My boyfriend had an old buddy who use to be his AA Sponsor. The guy got very ill with Parkinsons and back pain and lost his job at Motorola. He lost his apartment, all the contents, his car and his cat because the Social Security didn't come soon enough. He was told he wouldn't qualify for government housing unless he was homeless for a year !!! We took him into our house and didn't tell anyone he wasn't on the street. So I'm telling you this because being pissed off and suicidal is a waste of energy when you need to be getting your ducks in a row. Start making phone calls. I know, it's so annoying having a life of problems and then you spend all your time fixing problems. I'm very angry about my own problems.:stomp:
Is it that suicidal feelings are the opposite of being angry ?????
Okay so I need to get a social worker or a case manager. How do I begin? Is that something I can talk to my therapist or psychiatrist about? Thanks.
 
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Okay so I need to get a social worker or a case manager. How do I begin? Is that something I can talk to my therapist or psychiatrist about? Thanks.
if i were you id get on the phone

there will be an advice line

call all of them x

then tell your GP So theres a physical record of what you've just told us.
 
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Yeah, that's a great idea BDU. A help line would have the phone numbers of agencys that deal with housing.
I have a resource book with housing agencys in it but it's only local for my area. I would think your therapist would know some information ?? Write back and tell us what you find out. :)
 
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if i were you id get on the phone

there will be an advice line

call all of them x

then tell your GP So theres a physical record of what you've just told us.
Thank you. But I don't have any physical record unfortunately. I lost my police report from when I called before. Most of it is her word against mine. I know she would deny everything. She always has before. This is gonna be very tricky. I appreciate all the support from you all! I needed it. :hug: Now I gotta fight to protect myself again. I might have to finish on Monday morning! Stressful!
 
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Yeah, that's a great idea BDU. A help line would have the phone numbers of agencys that deal with housing.
I have a resource book with housing agencys in it but it's only local for my area. I would think your therapist would know some information ?? Write back and tell us what you find out. :)
Thanks. I will. I don't see my therapist until next Friday though. :low:
 
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Thank you. But I don't have any physical record unfortunately. I lost my police report from when I called before. Most of it is her word against mine. I know she would deny everything. She always has before. This is gonna be very tricky. I appreciate all the support from you all! I needed it. :hug: Now I gotta fight to protect myself again. I might have to finish on Monday morning! Stressful!
yes yu have to fight but if you round up all the troops, start the Offical Record keeping, before you know it youll be in your own safe rent controlled housing.

I was so sick when i got mine i iterally lucked out, the right person answered the phone and someone had just died so --- cottage by the beach after 3 years of homelessness TYVM! i skipped a 2 year queue got housed in 6 weeks. Because i called, right time, got the right person.

baby steps. keep looking forward, things generally do improve if you work towards it.
 
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Hi,
I'm really sorry for what you've gone through, I hope you will win your appeal. You really need a social worker, phone your local social services adult services. I hope your able to tell about the child abuse and domestic violence.social services can help you.
The police shouldn't have dismissed you, you should also report to the police.
Good luck with everything.
Take care
 
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