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Poor memory after Psychosis?

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FortheAlliance

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Hey guys.

So basically I've had 2 episodes of psychosis, since those my memory has been really poor, I'll explain a bit about my history and situation...

I was originally prescribed olanzapine and depakote in 2015 while in hospital but stopped the depakote after a month or two after leaving hospital early 2016. Then I tried changing from olanzapine to quetiapine late 2017 and I think the relative dose was quite low on the quetiapine (I went from 10mg of Olanzapine to 50mg quetiapine) and I had a relapse. I was then on 20mg Olanzapine, I think 3mg rispiridone, 15mg aripiprazole and 1g of lithium while in hospital. They took me off the olanzapine after a few weeks and then switched me to 100mg (I think) of paliperidone (Depot injection) as I left and reducing the rispiridone and aripiprazole over a few weeks at home. I then stopped taking the lithium with guidance after about 5 or 6 months.

I have a history of drug use, hard ones were mainly party drugs such as E, MDMA, Mushrooms, Speed and Ketamine, I dabbled with some research chemicals but not too much. I then took benzodizapines quite heavily for about 6 years due to chronic sleep issues and anxiety, also you know, they are crazy addictive. I've also had issues with alcohol. I came off the benzodiazapines while in hospital in 2015 and apart from a few sporadic uses when I wasn't feeling so good I've managed to kick them, haven't taken them now for about a year and have no real cravings or anything like that. I don't touch harder drugs anymore or cannabis, the only thing that's lingering is alcohol but that's something I float in and out of.

I started a new job at the hospital I was treated at about 8/9 weeks ago and my memory is actually being tested, as its all new and we have training and little tests, and I've really started to notice how poor my memory is, I can sit through an hours worth of slide shows and verbal information and barely remember a thing, even though I try quite hard to be attentive and listen. Its like I hear the words, understand them, but they don't go anywhere, literally in one ear and out the other. Its really starting to bug me as I never had this problem before my psychosis, I had poor short term memory due to benzodiazapines/illicit drug use/sleep deprivation but that's gone away for the most part, by that I mean for example putting my lighter in my pocket and then not remembering where I put it. Just now my ability to absorb new information is really really poor, also recalling memories is hard, both old and new. Its like I no longer see a mental image of information/conversations/events and I'm really struggling, to the point its upsetting me a bit. Before my psychosis I could remember most conversations word for word if they were important now I have a vague idea of what was said but if I was to try and relay that onto someone else I struggle to explain what was said.

Has anyone dealt with something similar? I'm gonna speak to my Doc soon (I'm going to have a new doctor as I recently moved areas) and see what they say but not sure what they can do about it. Any advice would be greatly appreciated as this is really bugging me. Its not interfering with my day to day work its just the training I'm worried about, not that I will lose my job if I'm struggling and they are well aware of my issues and are supportive I just hate being like this.

Thanks in advance <3
 
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How long did it pass since your psychosis episode? There are these n-back games that you can try in a continuous mode that have proven to help.
 
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Worriedyin

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You're definitely not alone, I made a thread on this recently. Like you, it's worst trying to take in new information but several areas of my memory are affected.

My psychologist is going to do some testing with me to see what's happening but I have to wait a few weeks - sorry I can't be more help.

I was starting to have memory problems before I became psychotic so not sure if that was a warning sign.

I have used a few apps, elevate and memrise, for a while and have downloaded the n-back app because of linus' recommendation but I can't do it as it's too hard.

I don't think my care team actually takes it very seriously, they are probably just so used to hearing people complain about it or maybe there's nothing they can do.
 
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FortheAlliance

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Linus its been about 2 years exactly since I last left hospital.

I'll check out these apps and games :)

My care team will ask me about side effects, and when I tell them about the weight gain, apathy, loss in motivation and memory they just don't really say too much. I keep talking about possibly tapering off my medication and they just quite blankly just tell me to stay on them, even when I mention changing meds they get a bit funny with me. I'd like to give aripiprazole a go on its own as it interacts differently with the dopamine receptors.

Pretty sure the Doc at the hospital said after 2 hospitalisations they recommend 5 years of meds but I don't really see what difference 2 and 5 years makes, I expect to feel exactly the same as I do now in another 3 years and don't see why there would be any difference in results when coming off them, if anything the longer you're on them the harder it is to get off.

Anyway. Will check out those games, glad to know its not just me!
 
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linus

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Choose a lower complexity for the game first! Increase as you feel confident
 
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FortheAlliance

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(y) I'll have a look when I get a minute, busy day/evening for me with training and homework
 
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Fern

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I find my concentration is affected. I recently bought a second hand Nintendo switch and I find I have little patience with getting stuck in games. Years ago I would have spent hours trying different things but now I check YouTube or give up.
 
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Hi,

I seem to be having the same problem. Since my episodes I have noticed that my memory is extremely foggy, & I tend to forget things very quickly.

I've considered whether this was due to the medication. Like you, I was put on Quietiapine (150mg) for about a year & later to Paliperidone, but I've refused to take it since June.

I honestly don't know what's happened--the worst part is having conversations with people. Most of the time I don't know what or have nothing to say. & I wonder if it's because of the meds...
 
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