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crw85

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I have been diagnosed with OCD, the most troubling part of which involves unwanted thoughts of molesting my 1-year old niece or other children. I am afraid I have been misdiagnosed and am actually a pedophile. The reason I fear this is because in addition to having the intrusive thoughts, I have thoughts such as "maybe I am attracted to children" ; "maybe I think a child would enjoy being molested and there is nothing wrong with it" ; "maybe the only reason I haven't acted out on these thoughts is because I am afraid of getting caught". I also sometimes purposely think of molesting a child and try to test my reaction to it - which often leaves me feeling more confused. I am nearly constantly distressed over this, can you please offer insight?
 
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Do you have a care team or support worker who you trust and can speak to and explore this? I'm not familiar with what you are describing but the important part is remembering that's all they are, thoughts. You know that you mustn't act on them. Paedophiles are people who are sexually attracted to children. Aside from these intrusive thoughts are you sexually attracted to children? It sounds to me like you are experiencing distress and your brain is coming up with nasty thoughts as a way to distract you? No child wants, or will enjoy, being molested and you know that
 
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crw85

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Thank you for your reply Luci. I do see an OCD therapist about these issues, and she says it is all part of my OCD. Besides having the thoughts, I don't believe I am sexually attracted to children, but if I think about it long enough, I start to doubt myself. I found out recently from my therapist that it is possible for children to get pleasure from being touched. I have really been struggling since learning this. Deep down, I knew I wouldn't ever touch a child because it would hurt them, but this information has pulled that reassurance away.
 
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It's troubling to be that your therapist would say that. Even if it were true I don't think it's ethical to say that to someone struggling with troubling thoughts like yours. What is important to remember I'd that this would be illegal. Thoughts are just visitors, let them come and go ♡
 
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Hi @crw85 your doing the best thing seeing an OCD specialist as Pedophile thoughts is a form of OCD and also counselling may help besides.
The question you need to ask yourself so therapy really will help you is - do you want to act on your thoughts.
This link below explains in detail what your going through.

 
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