- Apr 30, 2019
Hi everyone. Just writing this to let everyone know that for now, after four days of pure hell, my POCD is starting to fade away. It DID everything in its power to try and make me see myself as a former teenage sex offender/p*do by faking, twisting or even removing key details from my memories, even tried to convince me that I deliberately mistook a 9-year-olds feet for a 13-year-olds when I was younger and putting myself through anti-p*do tests. But through sleep, thinking and other coping mechanisms and help from the other POCD suffers here, I was able to see through the fog. I just want to thank all the people here who helped me and talked to me and I wanna say from the bottom of my heart that I wouldn't have made it without you all. No doubt that this kind of mental breakdown will happen again, as tends to be the case with me, but at least I now know I have a place to go. This is a big hug for everyone here. I'll always have my episodes, my phases, my doubts, but thanks to this place, I no longer feel alone. Will keep ya'll update on my progress. Thanks.