Is there anything you can do to try to distract from the horrible feelings you have now - I know how you feel, is there anyone at home that you can talk to. Obviously you can talk on here, what is it this everything - can you think of something that has got to you today or have you been feeling like this for a while?
You know drinking makes depression worse and leaves us in less control over what we may do to ourselves/others - I am not a model citizen I have to say I drink too, but I know it makes me worse and the come down afterwards is always bad and low.
Do you take anything for your depression? Have you tried any herbal remedies or suchlike.
Would you like to be able to talk about what it is that is making you feel so low?
Yes it was my way of coping too but it only works for so long until you get so so low you can;t handle it anymore - When I got that bad I went to my doctors and asked for help. Not everyone does and not everyone gets the help they need - I guess I am lucky in some ways as I now get therapy.
If you want to talk to someone in confidence you can always phone the samaritans on 08457 909090 - you could always PM me if you like.
I'm not around 24/7 though the samaritans are.
I guess drinking to mask problems is not to solution we think it is - not for me anyway