- Jan 5, 2010
Please, i really need some help, i have had severe depression about about 10 months now and it goods up and down as in some days am fine and i arent depressed yet other times an even or something can happen and i will go back into being depressed.
The problem i have is i have a plan and its coming up soon, i am very very scared to go to my gp thought i have a CPN i arent on any meds and meds again really freak me out. I tried to tell my CPN about the plan yersterday afternoon yet i couldn't and i just stayed quiet and cried for pretty much the whole session
My family does not know and only 2 friends know who are very worried about me. i am so scared and confused yet am calm i have never planned a plan as... detailed as this and am worried about if i was to end my life yet i am so scared about living yet its the problems that will be caused if i live, were will i end up, apparently i do meet the criteria for an involuntary hospitalization Also i have a horse will i share her so i have her 3 days a week and i cant lose her as far as if i was to live i cant end up in hospital as the horses owner would find out. I'm so confused yet i am scared of living yet am fine with ending it its just the people that will be left behind.