please read, could really use some advice

[shelly]

I'm driving my husband and kids away at the moment. I'm finding it hard just walking to work at the moment, just going out is a big deal. I know this might sound really silly but when someone talks to me I panic and blurt out the wrong thing or say something really stupid. My short term memory is really bad and my kids are getting frustrated with me which makes me feel even worse.
I then get cross and snap at them my head is racing all the time I find it hard to concentrate im sure people at work think I'm stupid and lazy but I really don't feel well at the moment.

Im trying to carry on a normal which is really hard, my husbands getting fed up with me and says im making him ill. At times I just feel like ending it all I don't want to upset my children and give them an unhappy childhood I don't want to screw them up mentally.

Im on a new medication now called setraline. I have no friends I can talk to about my problem. I look at other people and just wish I was normal whatever that is???
I try to put a brave front on at work but its not easy. I just feel trapped in this world that I can't escape from amd its horrible!

 

[ms_P]

The med you're on is called Zoloft to most of us. It's an antidepressant.
Who prescribed it for you? Can you not confide in them or ask for a referal to someone more specialised in mental health care?
You need not bear this alone. Making up excuses to your kids just hurts you and them more (experience talking).
Please try to get more specialised help. Take care.
You're not alone!

 

[shelly33]

Hi Shelly,

I'm not working at the moment, and I don't have children, but I can relate to the symptoms that you wrote about, because I'm going through a similar time at the moment.

I'm sorry I don't have any proper advice, but I just wanted to say hi and let you know you are not alone.

I hope that you feel better soon.

Shelly xxx

 

[jax]

Hi Shelly. Are you diagnosed Bipolar? It is just that some folks on anti-depressants can actually get manic on them. You should check that out.

Like the other Shelly said, I too can relate to a lot of what is going on with you. I am usually very vocal and people say that I am good at expressing myself and that I am very articulate. However, at times I can't find the word I am looking for. Or what I want to say comes out all wrong.

If I don't write something down - it is forgotten within minutes. I thought that I was having problems with my memory. I was really concerned. A psychiatrist I have been seeing just recently has told me that my memory is not the problem but rather it was my concentration. I don't retain things as I am not able to concentrate. You mentioned having problems with concentration. That's why I mentioned it.

You do sound like you are having a really difficult time. Feel free to pm me if you want someone to talk to. I hope that you get a chance to talk to a a doctor of some type soon.


Take good care.
Jacqui