- Apr 25, 2018
My partner ended out 23 year relationship out the blue. I'm beyond gutted, totally floored. I can't eat, sleep and everything seems pointless. All my hopes and dreams are gone. I'm so hurt he didn't talk things through, didn't give me a chance. He wanted to be able to just look after himself and apparently has felt he has to look after me for years after I lost my mum at aged 19 and dad two years later. I get anxiety and he wants to not to have to deal with it. I really feel we could have worked on things and feel awful he didn't give me the chance. He still had his parents and brother and I'm feeling totally alone. He gets the future he wants and all I wanted is gone. I'm just so sad we were together when we were 17 and I'm 41 now.(this first bit I posted this in another part of the forum and got one reply but I'm desperate for help, so reposting here.) I got so low he had to come stay at the house as I couldn't be on my own. It's weird with him trying to help me but I'd don't know what I'd do if not, I'd be scared I'd not be safe. He had to call the mental health crisis team and I had emergency counselling today, which was amazing but I don't feel I can do this. I just want him so much. I'm so so lost. I think I have massive attached issues and separation anxiety with him. I've made him my "safe place" and needed to know he'd be there when I needed him, unhealthy I know. I feel like I've driven him away, it's my fault. I just can't do this, it's too much.