- Aug 3, 2019
Ok, so for the last 6 months I have felt “off”. I get these random waves of awful feelings, just like a big wave of fear, anxiety, and hopelessness all combined into one for absolutely no reason. It feels like I’m trapped and there is nowhere to run and then maybe after 10-15 minutes it usually works itself away, sometimes it comes back, sometimes it doesn’t. I wouldn’t really call it a panic attack because my heart rate doesn’t really increase and I don’t start hyperventilating or anything like that I just feel awful, at its worst all I want to do is lay down and cry because of how shitty it makes me feel, it’s like it wipes out all the feel good chemicals in my brain. No trigger, no identifiable cause. I have a great life, good job, loving family, and no history or family history of mental health issues. I’m in college and I drink pretty heavily, 3-4 nights out at the bar boozing pretty hard, I can say that while I’ve been drunk I don’t get this feeling. I’ll get it when I’m buzzed, but when im actually drunk I can say I don’t think I’ve ever gotten this feeling. It seems to me like it’s some sort of chemical imbalance or issue as emotionally I’m fine and I don’t see myself as a crazy anxious guy to the point where I worry myself into a panic. But this is really starting to freak me out because it’s been around for a while and it’s hard to deal with and seems to be getting more frequent. For the past 5 days I’ve been totally sober to see if maybe alcohol is the issue here but I don’t think alcohol would cause something like this. My career path is heavily dependent on me being mentally stable so if I go to a doctor about anxiety/mental health that is likely a HUGE obstacle in my career if not a career ender. So does anybody have any advice? Doctors I can see off the record? Online support? Anything that could be causing this? Vitamins/supplements that are safe to try? It’s seriously starting to freak me out and I’m starting to lose hope that it’s never gonna get better. Plz help!