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Tanielle

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Hello and thank you for taking the time to read this. Truly, thank you.

I have never written on a forum before, but it felt necessary in this moment so here I am...

I am 30 years old, and have dealt with depression, CPTSD, and anxiety for years now. I was put on a small dosage of sertraline when I was in school (I obtained my BSW and MSW - Yes I am a social worker and counsellor which I'm sure may surprise.. or maybe not surprise some of you). Either way, I finished school last summer and am now fully employed and things have been getting worse instead of better. They tried increasing my medication and it did no good. I started going to the gym and I eat well, however, that hasn't seemed to had any positive effect.. if anything.. I feel worse.

I have a 9 year old son that I have raised on my own since day 1 (this was the result of a non-consensual situation), and I love him more than anything. He is what keeps me on the planet and I am a wonderful mother.

I am not suicidal (although a few years ago I fell into that hell and climbed back out of it). However, for the last couple months, my depression has worsened almost on a daily basis. I have started crying almost daily for no particular reason.. I'm just so incredibly sad and heavy. I am losing interest and hope in most things, and find every day to be a struggle. Getting up is a struggle. Even as I'm writing this my whole system feels like it's pleading to the universe for help.

Yes, my job is heavy. I deal with people's trauma, problems and sadness on a daily basis and it no doubt is contributing to this weight that is taking me down.

Because I have always had my son on my own, and went through 6 years of post secondary, I never really had time to make friends. Thus outside of my family (who is busy with their own lives) my world is very small.

Anyway, if you are still with me reading this, thank you. Please, if you have any help, words, thoughts, suggestions to offer, I would be most grateful. I don't want to get swallowed completely by this, and I'm not sure where to go from here.

I guess sometimes helping others is much easier than helping yourself.
 
LadyInsomnia

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Hiya Tanielle. Unfortunately I can't think of much useful advice right now (banging headache) but well done for opening up on here an looking for help. I hope someone else can give you the advice your looking for
 
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Hi Tanielle. I think if I was you I'd reconsider my occupation. I understand you need to pay bills etc but it seems your work is doing you more harm than good. Can you somehow lighten your caseload? I hope you start to feel better soon.
 
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There are a number of things that could be wrong, and a number of fixes that you could try. Long lasting depression and crying often in my experience often has to do with ones image of the future, on some level. Maybe you don't see any light at the end of the tunnel on a romantic level. Or perhaps you lost some part of your work that was important to you for your emotional health or satisfaction. Or somewhere you expected more out of life and are sad that this is all there is.

So the first thing to do is investigate, and try to find out roughly what part of your life image is causing the depression. You could try meditation, or expressing your fears through art therapy, or keeping a mood-and-thought diary where you track what you were thinking about prior to moments of low mood. Hopefully one of those will lead you to an insight about how you really feel.

Then there are various things that can help you feel better. You could try aromatherapy or burning incense, it is surprising how something like altering the smell of your home can change the mood. Perhaps tai chi or yoga might help you get more into the energy of your body. You could consult a body worker to help you with blockages of your emotions and energy, this can often make you feel a lot better.
 
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NeverUnlucky1993

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Hello,

First off congratulations on getting educated despite the problems you've faced.

It would be easy for me to say "quit your job", however you need to have a real think about the pros and cons of the work you do. No doubt you help people everyday which must be hugely gratifying. On the other hand, dealing with the horrors of other people's lives will of course take a toll. You'd have to be insane if the things you dealt with daily didn't affect your mental state.

What are your work colleagues like? Do you have any friends there? Do they have work functions (meals etc.) Can you arrange childcare so you can have some "you time".

If you decide that social work isn't for you, don't worry. You're highly educated and young. There's loads of other opportunities available to you.

From personal experience I can safely say that eating healthy, exercising, socialising and getting out in the sun will do you the world of good.

Best of luck and keep your chin up :)
 
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PS. Maybe do some research into mindfulness. I also find this useful.
 
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