- Jul 13, 2020
Hello beautiful people, I'm new here. So, I am severely depressed. Last weekend I survived an suicide attempt. My life is slowly falling apart. My mom kicked me out of the house because she couldn't deal with my depression anymore. I'm now living with my dad he's so worried for me and he's always there to listen to me although he can't understand my problems. I feel like I'm a walking corpse when I take my antidepressants, I feel like there's not a single bit of life left in me. I have no goals, no motivation, no hobbies anymore. I always feel like this is what I'm going to deal with for the rest of my life. My heart is telling me to move on and that I will be happy again but my brain is telling me to give up. I am so angry at myself for letting this happen. I don't want to feel like there's always something that's pulling me down, I want to be free. I have a hard time telling people how I feel because my family would often tell me " You aren't depressed, You have no right to be depressed, my life was a lot worse..." so I just go quiet and say that I'm fine. If someone would give me an advice I would really appreciate it. Thank you for reading.