Please help, I'm so paranoid and scared

[Rosetta85]

Hello everyone, I just registered today. I'm here because For the past few years I've been having paranoia. It seemed to start when one day my now ex-husband showed me a movie about the Illuminati and how there are conspiracies behind everything. It scared me so badly. Ever since then I've been suppressing all these thoughts I have, like I'll see something on CNN and think, omg, that must be a part of a conspiracy. Or I'll start imagining reasons behind why something happened in the news. I can't watch the news because I get such anxiety that I feel like I'm going to jump up and scream. My ex was also very very paranoid about nearly everything. I'm sure he influnced me. Also I use to be a very devoted christian. I think that has something to do with it. Because when I lost my faith five years ago, my whole life unraveled and I haven't quite been the same since. I asked some people on an ex-Christian forum and they said it may have something to do with the mind being programmed to believed that there are invisible forces governing everything. That makes sense, but I have no idea what to do with that information. I just know I am easily scared out of my mind, because my imagination is very active.

I don't want to be scared anymore...can someone please tell me what's wrong and what to do?

 

[Willcat]

I'm sorry your going through such a hard time Rosetta.

I don't want to be scared anymore...can someone please tell me what's wrong and what to do?

I'm not a trained professional so I cant offer up any advice in that department. However I know for myself that when I really take a look at the beliefs that cause me deep distress...I find that most, if not all of them are irrational. And I have to actively challenge them by disputing the reality of what I fear in all probability will not come to pass.

This is by no means an easy task. My obsessional or intrusive thoughts will run rampant if I don't challenge them. I have to constantly ground myself in the belief that I am safe...whether I believe that or not. Because doing this is a tool for recovery and I am of the mind that I can lessen the discomfort of my mental illness.

I hope it is within your means to have mental health help available to you. Be that a group or counseling. At any rate keep posting and writing out that which troubles you...I do the same and it really helps me.

 

[Star-28]

you know many of these conspiracies from movies and shows are possible, but not likely to happen. the most we have to worry about here in the us are terrorist attacks. all of that is out of our control. I would suggest some sort of anti anxiety med and some talk therapy. A good thereapist can make a world of diffrerence in your thought patterns. being paranoid sucks!! trust me I know!!