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Perfectionist problems

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Hello there

Ive always considered myself to have perfectionist tendencies, but I never imagined they would become this cumbersome.

I have been working on the same song since January. I had more or less the results I wanted by late March/early April, and I decided to come back to it later on, as to that point I had worked on it longer then any other song I had ever written.

Since then I have encountered ridiculous problems trying to finish it. On many occasions Ive recorded a new version that I could have sworn was more or less ideal, only to come back hours later (to analyze it) and find that it somehow now sucks and I can hardly bear to listen to it.

Not only that, but I would then feel strongly compelled to erase all traces of it. Its so discouraging because I cant get anything done, when mere months ago I was getting such great enjoyment out of writing my own compositions.

I dont want this to end, but Im not sure how to continue when apparently my own standards are unrealistic if not delusional. Its like I dont have any say in the matter because I never consciously made any attempt to set it up like this.

Anyways thanks for listening, I would be grateful for advice. Hopefully simply writing about this will help me. Perhaps more writing about this problem is a good idea?
 
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Hi Andrew, :welcome: to the forum,

I think a lot of creative people are perfectionists, but can be very distressing when you get so dissatisfied with your own work you are wanting to erase it.

Hope you find the forum helpful, and writing about how you feel.

Very impressesed you are a songwriter btw, and a bit envious :)
 
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Hi Andrew, welcome to the forum :welcome:, hope being here and writing out things helps. I will have to have a ponder about what you've said about perfectionism. One thing that springs to mind is, can you pinpoint exactly what you feel isn't right/you don't like about the song?

Take care and glad to have you join :peace:
 
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Have you been able to write other songs in the meantime, or is being unable to finish this one stopping you from doing any others? I wonder if it's the words that are not sitting right, or more the music and arrangement? Maybe the time just isn't right for this song, have you tried putting it on hold and coming back to it with fresh eyes/ears after a couple of weeks (or six months)? I've never written a song but I know the feeling that if something isn't 'right', then I can't be happy with 'almost good enough', especially something creative like this I'd imagine, it's not the same as more mundane things. Maybe you have to let go of this song altogether, if it is causing you to feel so stuck? Sometimes things just aren't 'right', and even if we don't know why, is it worth the ongoing distress trying to make them right? Or maybe you feel unable to 'let it go'? Sorry if I've rambled, just trying to think around the issue a bit. But I think what I'd do is shelve it if possible, and hope that time away from it will have shifted your stuckness when you return. All the best with it :peace:
 
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Hello and thank you very much for the warm welcome.

Ive actually been having success with the song in the past week, and Ill attach my most recent recording of it if I can figure out how. (Its only a section of the entire song, but its the part Ive really been struggling with)

It might have had to do with how all with all year Ive had a very difficult time keeping my guitar in tune and getting a good sound out of it. So I have fixed a few problems and replaced a couple parts, and Im a bit happier with the sound Im getting now; I am at least cautiously optimistic things may return more or less to normal.

I feel the main problem was that when I would review the song later on, the first few chords would sound distinctly out of tune and from then on it was as if the song had no chance to sound right in my mind.

But I also thought it helped to share this story as well since writing about my problems has helped before. Thank you for your kindness.
 
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Glad you've identified the main problem, and hope you can continue making progress with it :)
 
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