- Nov 7, 2019
Your thoughts disturb them. They want to break you in order to put you on medication...that will lower the volume of your thoughts...and they will be less disturbedThat sounds accurate.
A user in another thread told me that "they" were actually spirits manipulating me through my mind, which also makes sense to me as there seems to an esoteric element to what has been happening to me.
I'm not sure whether it's the people themselves treating me this way, or if there is in fact some kind of spirit(s) jumping from body to body, controlling people around me.
The latter would make sense because of that "cough" thing that so many of them do and the way that they regurgitate information- its like a hivemind, once one knows it they all know it.
They get angry when I start "yelling" my thoughts in within my head, one of them always says something relating directly to it, it agitates them.
The way you explained it makes me think of that movie "Dark City".
I just want it to stop.
It feels like I can't trust anyone anymore.
I tried to sever ties with my ex (I thought that maybe this would lessen the intensity of the attacks and get "her"/her "personality/spirit" to stop following me through life). I told her to get rid of everything that had to do with me like belongings, pictures etc and later when I tried to finalize it she told me how sad it made her and how she wanted to keep some of the things because they made her happy.
I was conflicted(to say the least), because of course I felt that such a request might sadden her, though at the same time there was a nagging thought(s) of "is she even real though? is it possible to hurt her feelings? is any of this real?".
What kind of life is this, is it really worth living? It seems like their goal, or at least one of their goals, is to get me to kill myself.