- May 19, 2020
- United States
I just remembered some past Trauma where I was not in good mental states and my husband was jumping on my head with his knee but I couldn't move to fight back...it was like I was frozen. The only thing I could think to do is call for help. He stopped because I started screaming for help. I have trouble resolving the emotions and feelings I get when I remember this event. I get upset that I couldn't move. I get upset that I was so delusional I didn't call the police but screamed out to the secret society so that they were aware of what was happening and do controls to stop the violence. I get really angry and think deviant. He was making me angry and I lunged after him only to go catatonic when he attacked me. The same thing happened for one of the rapes. I totally lost control of my body and fell limp as soon as the attack started. I don't know why this happens. How do you manage unresolved emotions and feelings surrounding past trauma? I think the catatonia comes in at the absolute worst time and I don't know how to predict when it will happen and it bothers me that I couldn't fight and that my mind went into an abnormal state in these traumas.