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lauren5412
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Hi,
I’m diagnosed with BPD...
when I was younger and in school (13 years old), I was seeing a boy who I really liked.. it ended but not on bad terms. A few years later when I was 17, we met up again, would see each other every weekend, have drunk sex and talk all night, we had an amazing time, again, it ended, not on bad terms.
again a few years later, I had just turned 21, we met up again, same situation, sex, amazing connection (on my part anyway) I would go pick him up from work some nights and drive him home then we would see each other at the weekend, and it was just amazing, I loved being with him. Again, it ended and not on bad terms.
I’m now 26 and heard from him last year, talked about meeting up and having a catch up, but this time we never did as he got in to a relationship and had deleted his social media and changed his number. I heard from him a few months later, he had told me he had been in a bad relationship and had to cut contact with everyone, again said we should meet up, never did as the same thing happened again, he got back with his ex.
my question/problem is, I’ve always had phases where I can’t stop thinking about him, I just want to be able to speak to him/see him. We had an amazing connection, brilliant friendship and amazing sex. basically, it always comes back to him. I’m in a relationship, have been for nearly 4 years, but nothing ever feels good enough after a few months and I always go back to thinking about him.
Is anyone in a similar situation? Is it the BPD that does this? It’s driving me crazy, I just want it to go away.
Thanks in advance.
I’m diagnosed with BPD...
when I was younger and in school (13 years old), I was seeing a boy who I really liked.. it ended but not on bad terms. A few years later when I was 17, we met up again, would see each other every weekend, have drunk sex and talk all night, we had an amazing time, again, it ended, not on bad terms.
again a few years later, I had just turned 21, we met up again, same situation, sex, amazing connection (on my part anyway) I would go pick him up from work some nights and drive him home then we would see each other at the weekend, and it was just amazing, I loved being with him. Again, it ended and not on bad terms.
I’m now 26 and heard from him last year, talked about meeting up and having a catch up, but this time we never did as he got in to a relationship and had deleted his social media and changed his number. I heard from him a few months later, he had told me he had been in a bad relationship and had to cut contact with everyone, again said we should meet up, never did as the same thing happened again, he got back with his ex.
my question/problem is, I’ve always had phases where I can’t stop thinking about him, I just want to be able to speak to him/see him. We had an amazing connection, brilliant friendship and amazing sex. basically, it always comes back to him. I’m in a relationship, have been for nearly 4 years, but nothing ever feels good enough after a few months and I always go back to thinking about him.
Is anyone in a similar situation? Is it the BPD that does this? It’s driving me crazy, I just want it to go away.
Thanks in advance.
