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Past event POCD please help

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Ilovemycat12345

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I really need advice this is killing me inside. Ok this all started with a boy who is 7 that I went to church with at first I was fine and then I started getting ocd that I liked him I got over it but then I realized I really did like being around him and would get excited seeing him and I feel like that might mean I had a crush on him. I know I would never wanna do anything with him but the feeling I got around him is making me feel like I really did. I used to get thoughts around him like oh he's handsome and cute and i like him but i think i just brushed those thoughts off as being ocd and i feel like since i ignored them it's TRUE. Idk it's killing me inside. The feeling I had around him because I dont think it was my OCD I really did like being around him and also one time he called me pretty and I got butterflies that's actually what made me remember this and now I'm worried that means sometime since I got butterflies. Idk I might be making up this feeling in my head but how do i know for sure. It feels so real I remember having this feeling but I cant describe what it was I guess just liking being around him... I told my mom and sister and they said it's not that big a deal. I feel so guilty because when I looks back I am like that doesn't seem like me at all I feel like I would of gotten obsessed about those thoughts and since I didn't it must be true. I am so worried I like him or liked him its killing me I am so depressed. I saw him not to long ago and got a thought that was if I got a boyfriend would he jealous but I ignored it. Please please give me advice and if it isn't ocd what can I do to just accept it and get over it because if it is true I would feel like a horrible person. I just need someone to talk to
 
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Ilovemycat12345

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I feel like the only way I am gonna get through this is to just accept that it's true because it feels so real. If I can just accept it I think I can get over it but I dont want it to be true. Please help has anyone else experienced this.
 
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Ilovemycat12345

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I cant describe the feeling I get when I think of him it's just like a feeling of liking being around him and his looks or something or just him as a person. It's not a normal feeling I dont think...it feels wrong. I just feel so guilty please can someone respond i really need help
 
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stanwee lee

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That sounds like ocd to me, it looks like your ocd has taken over and has scared the life out of you, why ? Because he is just a child and thoughts like this were alien to you, now you are worried if there is something wrong with you. This is what ocd does as you said at the beginning things were fine then you had a thought that you liked him, boom, you are now obsessed and desperately want to know what those thoughts/feelings mean about you and you can't get it out of your mind, chances are you are fine lets face it if there was something wrong with you,you wouldn't be so upset about it.
 
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