- Mar 2, 2010
hi guys, dont normally write in these forums but cant take it any more. I desperately need help. My partner has BPD ( borderline personality disorder). We found this out last week. For months now it feels like i have copped every kind of abuse possible. Every day it is something. Shes un reasonable, very difficult, agressive, and really not very pleasant to be around. I have been hit a few times. Ive had to call police on her for domestic violence, ive had to protect her child from flying objects. Shes broken her foot from kicking things, i mean its just completely out of control and i cant take it any more but getting rid of her is proving more difficult than id thought. I have a 2 year old and she ( my partner) has a 3 year old. Im always walking on eggshells, the slightest thing could set her off for example if the cat gets in her way all hell will break loose and she will just spiral out of control. Constant mood swings and throwing things. I feel like im trapped and cant escape this woman. I have tried everything to help her including dragging her to the doctors and going to counselling, cooking and cleaning so theres a bit less for her to do. Im not in the mental state either to deal with it as i have not long recovered from a breakdown from my previous relationship. But im too busy thinking of how to keep her calm and collected to even think about myself at the moment. Im at my wits end. And to top it off i have had to take her to the hospital 3 times in the last 7 days because shes overdosed on her medication. Ive had to lock myself and my daughter in the bathroom to hide from her until the police arrive. I mean thats not right i know its not but im scared to throw her out coz of her reaction, im scared to end the relationship coz of her reaction and im scared to ask her to leave because of her reaction. And i really have tried everything to help her but nothings working. Its never going to be enough and she wont help herself. I just wanna give up. Someone out there must have some good advice for me. Thanks for taking the time to listen to my story.